Overwhelmed By Chronic Illness

[KLOVE]

Hi, I'm an ill person since the age of 8. As I've gotten older the list of illnesses that I have is getting worse. Over the years I've been diagnosed with chronic asthma, 2 brain tumors, breast cancer, Menieres Disease, MS and I'm currently undergoing tests due to heart problems, possible liver disease & bowel cancer. I'm only 49 yrs young but my body feels old. I'm now at the stage where I don't want to now what else is wrong with me, I'm just waiting for my body to give up & get me out of this horrible nightmare. I'm not living but more like existing. I'm tired, in pain, dependent on my husband and others, I'm hearing impaired and losing the desire to keep going. It's impossible for others in my life to understand, they try keep me going, but I'm exhausted physically & mentally. I take antidepressants, but don't know why I bother sometimes. Sometimes I wish I could hide in a cave & go in peace.

[Sophie_M]

Hey KLOVE,

Thank you so much for posting here tonight and sharing your situation. We are so sorry that you are facing so many challenges. To have gone through the physical illnesses that you've suffered is very difficult and we understand that it has been exhausting, painful and scary for you. It also sounds like there are people in your life who are concerned for your wellbeing even if you feel they cannot truly comprehend your suffering. We are glad you reached out and it shows that there is a part of you that does want to connect and keep going. Please know that you are in a safe, non-judgmental space to share your experiences and our wonderful community is here to provide you with the support you need.

Can we ask if you are currently accessing any mental health support? If you would like some help finding mental health support, we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport  One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.

You are a worthy and valuable individual who deserves support and assistance to handle the challenges that life throws at you.

Please look after yourself and keep posting here to let us know how you are doing whenever you feel up to it.

[therising]

Hi KLOVE

You sound so overwhelmed and understandably so. My heart truly goes out to you as you face such enormous challenges.

What comes to mind when I read your words is an incredible book written by Dr Joe Dispenza. It's called 'Becoming Supernatural'. The book details findings that link body, mind and natural self to being a highly interactive trio. Dispenza takes body, mind and spirit and translates them through the fields of neuroscience, epigenetics and quantum physics. While that sounds like quite a mouthful, he has an amazing talent in conveying things in an easy to understand way. There are some incredible stories in this book about remission, the journey from extreme disease to greater health. I imagine you'd be able to relate to some of these stories, when it comes to the life altering impact of a lack of physical health and mental well being.

I know this suggestion is possibly not your cup of tea but I'm hoping it will make some difference in the way forward. If conventional hasn't worked, sometimes unconventional can be the way to go. Another unconventional inspiring guy is George Jelinek, a highly reputable and incredible man in medicine who is doing wonders for people with MS. Hard to believe, he overcame MS himself.

I imagine you're desperate for inspiration, something that will make a difference, even if it's to lift your spirits on your way to investigating the unconventional. It's definitely hard to not give up hope in finding the things that do make a difference, especially when we've been tolerating for years the things that make no difference at all.

My greatest desire is to offer you hope, something you deserve. You are an incredible person 🙂