over it

[MrsCam]

I know it is just a low phase and I will come out the other side, as I usually do, but I am so over it right now...not feeling too great physically which makes it worse, have been alternating between freezing cold & boiling hot all day... I wish I could just escape sometimes from myself and my life... I know its not the answer but it would be so damn easy and I think a relief to just be done... have another counselling session tomorrow and we have discussed this before, that I dont need to get too stressed about the low times as I know they will pass but still it is hard...just wanted to vent to someone who would understand, I dont have much of that in my world...

[Girl_Anachronism]

Hi Mrs Cam

I didn't know you were in WA. I am in Perth myself. 

I am glad to hear you have professional supports on hand, and that they are monitoring you. It may seem like a long time, but just take it one day, or one hour at a time and it'll be time for the appointment before you know it.

I don't know much about the private facilities here, having only been in the public mental health system.it is an option that is worth investigating.

I know the place your in with those thoughts, having been there recently myself. I know how time drags and how the smallest thing can make everything seem too hard. I canonly hope that you feel comfortable to keep posting on here. If it does get to that desperate point, please call the number at the top of this page.

There is always a way out, a way to live from where we are, sometimes we just can't see it. 

GA

[geoff]

dear Mrs.Cam, we worry about you and the state that you are in and the feeling that you have had enough.

When we suffer from depression we just don't know if and when it is going to deliver another powerful blow to us which does then puts us back to square one again, and all the work that we may have achieved is thrown out the window, and we can never predict this from happening, so when it does then you need all the help you can get.

I can't remember if you have health insurance, but your husband has to decide whether he wants you to recover which means going into a private hospital or the alternative and for you to suffer and by saying suffer, this doesn't relate to how bad you are at the moment, and from your post you aren't well at all, which means that our worry for you is extreme.

Please stay in contact with us, even tough you may not have the strength to do so, and this is very important for you as well as for us here. L Geoff. x

[MrsCam]

Thanks guys...

Still struggling today tho I have been at work for the morning... Thats likely to start a whole other saga as my boss doesnt want my depression to impact the rest of the team and one of my coworkers saw me crying this morning... hopefully she wont tell anyone...

Yes we do have full private health and hubby is on board with  the idea of me going into a clinic so I am waiting to bear back from there bout what the go is...

Home on my lunch break at the moment and Ive had a big cry so hopefully I can get through the rest of my work day... Id dearly love to just call up and say Im not coming back.... feel like Im in a  bit of a no win situation cos Im told "dont come to work if youre not going to be upbeat" but then if I dont go in I hear all about how hard it is for everyone to be 1 staff person down... whichever way I go I cant really win 😞

Take care all and thanks for being there...

[Neil_1]

Hi there Mrs C

Do you at least have the weekend off work?   I so hope so.

This is sounding very positive also re:  the private facility in Perth.  And wow, so good to hear that your hubby is good with all this.  That must be a very good relief for you.

But it is sounding troubling times for you - and I'm glad that there are wheels in motion for you - and I hope they continue to turn for you even though the weekend is upon us.  That hopefully shouldn't make any difference to situations like this.

If you're able to, please keep us posted with things.

Please take care,

Neil

[--Danny--]

Dear MrsCam, I hope u feel better soon..best of luck...keep strong

Warm regards,

Danny

[MrsCam]

Thanks guys...

This afternoon was a little better. When I went back to work after my break I sat down on the big jumping mat and alot of the children were climbing on me and they kept giving me hugs which was nice... never mind that I am paid to care for & educate them, today the children were comforting me!!!

Feeling better tonite than I have for the past few days so hopefully the worst of the darkness has past, for this time at least...

Yes Neil I do have the next 2 days off work so that will be good...

Take care all

[--Danny--]

MrsCam, this is great news...I'm happy that u are starting to feel better!

Positivity rules the world!

Danny

[MrsCam]

have decided to increase my medication again... I had been trying to wean back down to just 1 tablet each day and have been taking 1 1/2 for the past couple of months. this morning I took 2 which my gp said I should go back to if I feel the 1 1/2 is not enough. Will continue with 2 tablets each day till thursday when I see my gp and will discuss with him then. I am also going to ask him to write me a referral to the private clinic in Perth... Its so hard cos today I am feeling ok so if someone was to asses me right now they'd say "nup she is ok, she doesnt need to be admitted" but then when I have days like I did this past week i think I really could benefit from these programs....

hope everyone is having a good weekend

[--Danny--]

Hi MrsCam, I'm hoping you benefit from the increase of your medication! Sounds like you've had a few good days this week?

Best wishes,

Danny

[MrsCam]

My gp had a cancellation today so I was able to see him. He sent off a referal for me and I am going into Perth Clinic on wednesday. He thinks a change in meds might be the go but would prefer I do that in a more safe & supportive environment... 

Thank god for private health cover!!

Hope everyone has had a good day