Hi Kanga_brumby,
It can be really tough when friends move away and you loose contact with them. Sorry to read that family members don't seem to understand and are not supportive.
For some people, depression is a really hard illness to understand. I think a lot of people don't even consider depression to be an illness, like it is just a state of mind that we choose to have!
All of us suffering from depression know that we don't choose this at all!
It is great that you have written out how you are feeling. It is not great that you feel so lousy, but good that you have shared how you are right now, and hopefully through doing this you might realise there are people out there who will listen to you, or at least read and comment on what you have shared.
This is a safe place to vent and explain to like minded people that you are going through a rotten time right now.
If you don't mind a few questions, are you receiving any care or help at the moment from professionals?
Are you on medication for your depression?
Do you have some strategies to help you through this?
Have you ever used the phone help lines like the one here at Beyond Blue on 1300 22 4636, or Life Line or any other support? I believe there is a Men's Line as well. Not sure of the number though.
Do you have something you can do right now to help you feel a bit better? Read a book, watch a movie, have a warm shower (I'm not sure if guys like to soak in a bath or not?) if you have a pet, give them a hug. Try and think of three things that you appreciate from your day and think back if there were three things yesterday you could be thankful for.
For something totally different, try and think of every living creature you can starting with the letter P. That will give your mind something different to concentrate on.
Hope some of my ramblings have helped. I certainly understand that depression can by hard.
Speaking of hard, maybe you can try to find animals that begin with the letter Q.
Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools
