Hi Captain T,
I'm sorry to hear how low you are feeling, I have been there and I know how difficult it is to be in that dark place and how difficult it is to find a way out of.
It is good that you are being compliant with your meds but I am wondering if the meds you are taking are still the right ones for you if they are not helping. Have you let your GP know that they are not helping?
That phase of just existing is so desperately lonely and I really feel for you. I am glad you at least have your dogs for comfort and companionship. I think we withdraw and isolate ourselves for a couple of reasons. Like when we don't feel understood or when we don't feel safe. What would you say is the case for you?
Are you seeing a counsellor at present? I feel that is important when you are in a dark place, it can help you find different perspectives on what you are going through. If counselling has not helped in the past, it may be that you have not yet found the right person for you. It makes all the difference when you do.
I would like to continue this conversation and support you. Would you be open to talking a little more about what is happening in your life and what has been the catalyst for feeling so low?
Thinking of you,
indigo
