dear Katatonic, welcome to the site, and can I please say that it's never easy posting your first comment, because you tend to worry that people here would not think that it's worth posting, well that's not true and never feel this way, because what you have suffering from has affected your life, and obviously changed how you live, so it's very important to try and get help, and all posts are just as concerning as another.
You can't keep quite and pretend that life for you is OK, because it's far from this, and further down the track it will only get worse, so by saying that you really are lost is a step in the right direction.
Please don't be too frightened on what you want to say, as all of us have been to hell and back more times than you can count, so there wouldn't be too much that we haven't heard before, and by saying this means that every post is as important as the other.
There are people who need more help than other people, but that's not the point here, because everybody has problems that affect themselves, their lives, their work and the list goes on, so to you your post is in need of help, as nobody has to try and cope with all the traumas that you have to face, so JO Blow next door maybe worse off in certain circumstances, but he doesn't have to cope with what you have to.
So we hope that you can come back to us and explain a little more to us. Geoff.
