So I finally went to my GP and have been prescribed antidepressants for my depression. I work in a job where I'm "the brave hero" I often attend jobs to assist people who aren't coping and even jobs where help was to late. The thought of "us" not coping is a subject my colleague don't discuss as we are supposed to be the strong brave ones. When I am the brave one I know I don't judge the people who ask for my help. But now I'm the one needing help and judging myself.
I feel like I'm only half a person, not normal and compleatly different and detached especially from my work colleagues and don't really want to admit what's going on in my head. I feel like if my colleagues knew what was going on none of them would want to work along side me. However if the shoe was on the other foot I wouldn't have an issue.
Any one else had this type of struggle, any ideas on how to change my mind set?
