I've been anxious since my early teens, age of 11 as a male, moved out of home aged 15, I fell of a three storey balcony and crush fractured my lumber spine narrowing the spinal column, I held a full time job for 18 years was then diagnosed type 1.5 diabetic, several partners cheat on me, family had already turned their back on me because I was gay but, I was driven, I wanted to make a life for myself, I wanted money and the more I tried to work the more I couldn't sleep, anxiety started creeping in. By the age I was 33 I was so anxious, paranoid, dillusionql, even though I was on medication, seeing a counselor, talking with psychiatrist, I developed graves diesease, I developed anorexia, I developed very severe sleep apnea, I gained 45kg, I lost lost 3 jobs within a 12 month period due to the fact I was so anxious to leave my bedroom or the bathroom I'd die. . . I still to this day wake up as I'm falling and screen, I'm in constant pain from my spinal injury, I can't twist, bend or pick anything up and you know... Calling Centrelink every 2 months for the last year alone, to be told the way we process you has changed, you need to resubmit, is beyond unacceptable. I'm now bankrupt, I have no family, I have no social circle, I have no capacity to make or keep friends so, I end up here.. I still meet with job seeker counsellors, gp', specialists, call lifeline, beyondblue, but, I need help. I need someone to sit down, listen, talk to me, communicate as a human being and sorry, if I feel I need to ask for help.. I don't believe suicide is an option and I do believe Centrelink has exqsibated my conditions but, I need help, I need an avenue, I can't just either away end up living on the street or be sent to an asylum.. I'm a human being and I deserve rights, I've been living with disabilities and thrashed myself mentally and physically, I just need a bit of help to create some sort of life I can support and deal with..
