I am fast spiraling into a depressive episode. I have bipolar. I am normally very stable as long as I have limited stress in my life.
At present I have nothing but stress.
I have medical issues that generally cause me some stress but they have now been compounded with the potability of yet another surgery.
I own my own home and I have my parents living with me to help me and it also helps them. My father invited my eldest brother to come live with us a few months ago. Not wanting the stress of the argument I agreed.
My brother has a history of violence towards us and is also mentally unstable.
He has starter doing things that he knows that trigger me and has escalated to damaging my things tv's and such and blaming it on our elderly mother. Which is not possible because she does not come into the rooms of mine. He has done this same routine many times in the past and I know it gets worse from here..
I have told him he has 5 days to find himself somewhere else to live. He laughed at me like it was a joke. He is now calling agencies and people to do everything he can to stop me from kicking him out.
I am so scared he is going to flip out and not leave and make everything as hard as possible and I have no idea how to fix it and so know very well I am going to spiral into either a severe depression or even worse on of my very very troubling manic episodes.
I don't know who to turn to, who to go to, who can help me and how I can save myself from spiraling out of control!
I'm so scared of losing it after so many years of a clean run.
