Losing the fight

[scaredanddepressed]

A few years ago I had a accident at work, where someone got injured because of my mistake, and it literally gutted me that I had done it, and once workplace health and safety became involved I was getting charged for it, everyday I would wake up with it slowly killing me inside, knowing I had injured someone and also knowing my entire life would be turned upside down.

With a impending court case next week, I have found I have spiraled more and more into depression, over the last 6 months struggling to find a way to do anything, sometimes just finding myself sitting in a corner or down by the river crying, and even though people keep saying they are there for me, I have never felt so alone in my entire life.

You feel as though you are in a hole so deep that there is no real way out, trying to think of positive quotes, or people telling you to just not let it worry you, and you start to feel as no one is really listening anymore, that will to fight fades away.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Scaredanddepressed,

Welcome to the forums. It sounds like it's been an incredibly difficult few years, and recently have been struggling to find ways of coping. We hope you find some comfort in sharing here, and in hearing from the lovely community members. We can hear it sometimes feels like no one is listening, but we are here and we are listening.

We wondered if you'd ever recieved any mental health support through this time? It sounds like this accident has had a huge impact on your life and your wellbeing, and you should be supported through that. If you ever want to talk this through with one of the Beyond Blue counsellors, feel free to give us a call on 1300 22 4636, or reach out through Online Chat here.

Thank you for sharing this and giving this community a chance to offer you their understanding and support. We’re here to listen and you never know how your story might help someone else to share.

Kind regards,

Sophie M

[white knight]

hi, welcome

During our lives we will find obstacles that come about, the unexpected ones, that are really difficult to face especially long drawn out ones because quick ones allow you to recuperate and move on. The process you have experienced is almost torture actually and it is very hard for you to look at say 12 months time when you are in a much more positive frame of mind with this issue in the past.

So there isnt much you can do ATM except what Sophie has offered.

I am experienced in court procedure. It seems frightening but it really is a process of steps and interviews. You made a mistake, humans do make them, so that frame of mind wont download to any conflict, you'll be ok. Those of us that have been in a courtroom many times know it is scary for the new comers so put faith in the legal people and simply- be honest.

Please post any updates on your conditions and see a GP if it all gets too much..

TonyWK