Lonley

[Candylover]

I feel so empty inside, like nothing is ever going to get better. I want to cry but no tears come out. I want to scream at the top of my lungs but I'll just get in trouble. There is no purpose to my life - I am of no benefit to society. Why do I exist? Is this even real? I want to love and be loved but that'll never happen because I have horrible interpersonal skills and push away pretty much everyone I like eventually. It hurts so much to be abandoned and replaced by others - what's the point? My mind is a jumble of horrible selfish thoughts and no body even cares. It's all my fault. What's the point of this stupid life. Every day's the same, and endless loop slowly going downwards, getting darker as I get older. If I could have one wish in the world, it would be that I never existed. Nobody's gonna care about this post. Proof that it's all my fault and I'm the problem and I'm such a big fat selfish burden.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Candlylover,

Thanks for reaching out to our community tonight. Please know that this is a safe, non-judgemental space for you to share these feelings and experiences. It sounds like you're feeling quite distressed and the moment and we're so sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. Please know that you are valuable and always welcome here.

You mentioned that you are feeling hurt from being abandoned and replaced by others. Is this something that has happened recently? Feel free to tell the community more about what has been happening for you.

If you feel it may be helpful, you are always welcome to get in touch with Kids Help Line. They are a confidential and anonymous, telephone and online counselling service specifically for young people aged 25 and under. If you are feeling overwhelmed tonight and need to chat to someone more directly than the forums, we would encourage you to get in contact with this service.

Thanks again for sharing your story here - we hope that you find some comfort in the forums.

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi Candylover

I care about your post. I hear someone who's struggling and in pain, but is bravely reaching out for connection. Everyone is valuable and worthwhile in this world. I wonder if you feel like sharing a bit of what's going on in your life, so that we might try and work out what might be helpful for you?

I'm listening. Katy

[missep123]

Hi Candylover,

Same as Katy, I care about your post as well! I hear you and I can understand that things are very challenging at the moment. We're here for you to listen to you.

[Candylover]

Well, what would you like to know?

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi Candylover

Thanks for posting again. You can share whatever you're comfortable with and would like to share about what's going on for you. Some of the things I'm wondering about, are how long you've been feeling this way? And if you can think of any reason why these feelings are coming up for you? But you're welcome to share whatever you'd like. This is a safe space where you'll find people willing to listen and offer support. Things can get better. You've been really brave to reach out here. Hope to hear more from you.

Katy

[Guest_4643]

Hi Candylover, welcome to the forums.

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, we're all here for you.

There is purpose to your life, even if you can't see it. And you are a benefit to society. You exist because you should, and I'm sure you have many good things to give the world. We care, and nothing is your fault.

Please stay safe.

[missep123]

Hi Candylover!

Anything that you would like to share we are open, interested and non-judgemental.

This is a safe space 🙂

Hope to hear more from you!