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I'm wondering whether you've managed to tick some of the usual suspects off the list, when it comes to a serious lack of motivation. One can involve a debilitating vitamin or mineral deficiency (for me it was B12) and the other involves a quality sleep (energy restoration) issue. For me, I can relate to sleep apnea. As energy and motivation zappers, these 2 can definitely be on the list. Investigating possible physical issues is one area to consider. 'Mental issues' is a whole other area, although the 2 can tie in together in some cases (physical and mental). For example, when physical issues become depressing, so too can inner dialogue.
I was watching a YouTube video the other day with my 19yo son, featuring David Goggins (who would have to be one of the most driven people on the face of the earth). Goggins mentioned something interesting and that involves achieving reaching goals with no motivation. I can't help but wonder whether his experience in the navy helped develop this kind of mindset. Kind of like if we have someone regularly commanding us to bring our A game, then technically that person is leading us to develop 'the commander' in our self. This facet of our self may dictate 'No excuses. You will achieve thoughtlessly (by not thinking your way out of things). If I tell you to drop and give me 20, you will do what you're told. You will not question it, challenge it or complain about it and you will not tell me 'I can't do that'. You will do it whether you're motivated to do it or not!'. As a 54yo gal, I'm seriously trying to develop this part of myself, which is not easy when I'm also dealing with the victim in me at times, along with the pessimist or defeatist, my inner critic and other aspects that relate to some form of sabotage. To be the person I want and need to be (mentally and physically), this is an uphill battle at this point in my life and without the commander in me dictating the challenging way forward (CLIMB THAT GODDAMN HILL!!!), I'd have some other part of me that (as usual) would suggest 'Just relax. You need to be much kinder to yourself. Why not treat yourself to some Netflix, chips and chocolate. It would make you so much happier than what you are'. We all have a commander or disciplinarian in us, it's matter of how to channel it or bring it to life. Yes, easier said than done. Of course, if there's an underlying physical issue that is seriously messing with our energy levels, if the energy's not there for those push ups or that hill climbing it'll be like trying to get a charge out of a flat battery. It ain't gonna happen.
Diving into the world of 'energy' could be a way of getting you closer to a sense of motivation. Mentally and physically, what creates energy and what depletes it could be 2 things to consider exploring. It's a massive world to explore, from chemistry, inner dialogue, neural pathways, quantum physics (the natural behaviour of energy) and epigenetics (in relation to what switches gene expression on and off) right through to developing the senses, so as to gain a greater sense of drive and how it feels, a sense of the excitement in our cells and how that feels, inspiration and how that feels etc etc. In other words, how to gain energy or charge through developing our ability to feel. 'Feeling in charge' can have more than one meaning.
