It never gets better, only worse

[Nickname_65BD5CCF-CA54-46]

I was looking at my first post here in August, and its still all the same or worse now.

I don't think I've talked to a friend in all that time. I've achieved nothing except more debt.The impact of my life is so close to neglible it really doesn't matter.

How long do I have to do this for? I keep thinking if we have euthanasia for physical pain that doesn't let up for years, why not mental? I figure ten years will most likely see my parents pass away and my child to be able to look after themselves as an adult. So that's my ten year plan that helps me through some nights.

I'm sick of crying. I'm sick of not coping, I'm sick of life being so sh---y. It's not going to get better, month after month gets worse and worse.

[V17]

Hi Grok,

Well I certainly didn't anticipate that the clouds where just a bunch of cotton wool balls and marshmallows. Here I was thinking, I hope it's something powerful like an eagle or a horse shoe. This is typical of me Grok, little-miss-stroking-my-ego. I think it's important to keep me humble, actually it's vital. Anyways, I thought bugger it I am going to embrace this. So I went into my floordrobe room and got out some cotton wool balls. They felt so soft on my cheek and if I was a blind person it would be a good way to describe the word white. When I opened my eyes I looked in the mirror. Jeez. I have dark circles like Panda Girl (I haven't looked in the mirror for days) so I gave myself a quick nurture - tone and moisturise - with the cotton wool ball I was holding.
Thank you so so much Grok, I would never have done that if you didn't write this post. Even if you still find it difficult maybe it is good enough for you to know that you have helped me? Keep posting buddy, I already think you're a legend for what's happening to me. Indirectly, through you, I am starting to hope and think maybe I CAN do this.
P.S. Imagine if I had a bag of marshmallows!

V.

[Doolhof]

Hi V,

It is great to see you are finding your way around the forum.

Cloud watching can be fun. I quite often look out the car window at the clouds, more so when my husband is driving, not such a good thing to do intently when I am driving!

I like how you went further with the cotton wool balls.

Marshmallows, now they make me think of fires and toasting them on sticks. Yum.

Hi Grok, hope you can find something today that will make you smile, even just a little bit.

Cheers all from Mrs. Dools