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I have 2 little ones and a hubby. We live paycheck to paycheck in a town that offers nothing for free. Except the park that people use to do bad things.

I'm stuck in these 4 walls 24/7. I've tried doing hobbies and starting a business. Anything to stop myself from going mad. I'm starting to see things again. Random visions like animals in my house or people running past.

I need to get out of these 4 walls but money rules all. Want to go anywhere? Cost to fuel up. Want to experience anything? Costs to do. All the creeks around me are on private properties and have fees to go there for the day.

I'm trying to be the best mum I can be. I put my little ones in daycare a couple days a week for them. They needed people who can be happy, teach them, do more for them. I know I can be an amazing mother but when I'm stuck in 4 walls staring at the ceiling I'm slowly going insane.

I guess I'm just here to rant, nothing can change.

I've had anxiety and depression my whole life.

I've pushed away family and friends because when they ask 'how are you' i can't answer. How am I? Numb.

Shell4

Hello and I hear you. Sometimes that is all we need for someone to hear our voice. A kind of connection to another human. Feel free to write more if you would like to

Just wondering get you get outside in nature to go for walk while your little ones are at daycare? Or can you volunteer at the day care centre. Is there a public library near you. I hear you about the petrol prices too.

Are you able to do a course of some kind something you are interested in? Or an online course. Can you start a veggie garden, just something to do outdoors or on a balcony? Do you like listening to music, maybe something calming or do dance to.

What else do you enjoy doing? At the moment I have been baking Anzac biscuits it starting on Anzac Day. And because they were so yummy my son asked me to make another batch yesterday. Do you like baking?

Write whenever you would like to

BlueLily

Hi there,

I won't ask 'how are you'. I've been in situations where I didn't want to answer that question myself. Hiding from people who care about you and society may feel like the ideal option at the time. But then I reached out to few trust worthy friends and family. I opened up little bit first to an extent I was comfortable in. Then I was amazed at how much they wanted to help me, sometimes by just having a simple conversation.

I hear you that your area doesn't provide much free options. I'm constantly seeking for kids activities myself hosted by council. I find the information is unfortunately little bit hard to find. Some I find on their social media. Some on the connected libraries websites. Sometimes if you give them a call they direct you to the right website for the information.

I hope you find some avenue to feel the freedom and enjoy with your little ones. We will always be here to listen to you and help you. Take care