I've been really struggling lately and just need someone to listen

[Tinks99]

Im a newbie and its 3am here and like the title says, I just want someone to listen to my thoughts.

I got diagnosed with depression/anxiety/ptsd when I was 18. The anxiety and depression stem from an abusive childhood and the depression when my aunt died. Just a little background info

Lately, I dont want to be here anymore. I don't want to wake up, I dont want to eat and I just don't have any motivation to do anything. So I went and saw my doctor today and she increased my medication and recommended BeyondBlue.

My partner doesn't really seem to understand, and it hurts. Every time I'm like this he thinks its because I've thought myself into it and doesn't understand that it can just happen. He thinks I need to learn how to be emotionally independent.

Sorry I'm rambling.

My biggest support system is my nana, shes always been there to help me, whether it be having a chat at 4 in the morning or coming with me to hospital

Im barely holding it together, I really just want to fall apart and cry. I feel like I could just cry for months

Someone please read this and just say they're proud of me

[LJpd81]

Hi Tinks. Are you ok?

[David35]

Depression comes in waves, at least for me. It's a bit like standing out in the surf and the waves are crashing over you. It would be nice to just walk out onto the beach and avoid them altogether. But life isn't like that. Just recognising that the waves will subside or that if you do get knocked over, you can always get back on your feet, is enough to convince yourself you'll be okay.