Hi. I'm kinda new to the forums.
I have anxiety. It's great. (*obvious sarcasm*) I also suck in social situations. I find it hard to understand sarcasm and jokes. So about mid last year when I started having days when I felt completely empty I was kinda annoyed, but also not the concerned. I just kinda played it off as being a moody teenager. But then those days started to happen more frequently, like once a fortnight. During christmas break it actually wasn't too bad. Since school has started up again it's happening more frequently, like once a fortnight-once a weekish.
My friends have pointed out that it might be depression, but I'm almost too scared to put a label on it. Like once I know what it really is, then it will be like really real. I brushed it off and said that depression should happen more consistently. (cause that's what I used to think depression was, constant) But my friend said that depression can be everyday, or once a week, once a fortnight, once a month. So I looked up symptoms of depression and...
- anxiety, apathy, general discontent, guilt, hopelessness, loss of interest, loss of interest or pleasure in activities, mood swings, or sadness - I have anxiety, I've always cared about others, I feel guilty about stuff I did or said like 5 years ago, I had quite a loss in writing and reading for a while, my mood changes all the time
- agitation, excessive crying, irritability, restlessness, or social isolation - I've always been emotionally out of control. (I get annoyed and sad easily and cry a lot) I also don't have many friends and the friends I do have I kinda suck at keeping in contact with
- early awakening, excess sleepiness, insomnia, fatigue or restless sleep - I find it really hard to fall asleep and get up in the morning, I'm also basically always tired
- excessive hunger, or loss of appetite - I don't really feel hungry unless I eat something, like I can go over half the day without feeling hungry, but if I eat something like a slice of apple I will want to eat more and more food
- lack of concentration, slowness in activity, or thoughts of suicide - I find it hard to concentrate, I've always been lazy, and I've had suicidal thoughts for about a year now (I've never tried to do anything though.)
- weight gain or weight loss - I've gained a little weight but not that much
- repeatedly going over thought - I over think everything
Can someone who knows about this pls explain what is going on with me?
