I'm lost

[itaintmyfault]

I'm so lost on what I'm doing. My phone has been taken away because I have been doing a lot of stupid things to try to get over my ex-boyfriend. I have lost my trust with my parents and I have been feeling unsafe in my house for many months now. My mum doesn't understand mental health and she even have drinking problems which doesn't help me cope either. I haven't seen my psychologist since January which is when I was at what I thought was my lowest point but I'm now at my lowest and I feel trapped. I have only talked to my grandmother and uncle about how I feel because they understand me more than anyone in the world. I want to feel safe somewhere and I don't want to feel like rubbish anymore. I'm numb and I just don't know if I can stand it anymore. I'm not honestly sure what to do. My own sisters don't even care about my feelings.

[Tangney]

Hello itaintmyfault. I'm so glad that you have your uncle and a grandparent to support you. I sense that you feel abandoned by your ex-boyfriend and may have lashed out in some way by use of the phone. I actually think it's best if you don't have the phone, as it can be tempting to send instantaneous messages that are composed in the heat of the moment, which you may regret in the future. Unfortunately this type of technology, even the kind we're using now, can distort people's true intentions because tone and personal contact are not involved. I hope you're going ok. I understand how it feels to have no-one in your household who understands or sympathises with you. There are some people who will never understand unless and until a similar thing happens to them. Best wishes.

[chloe_xx]

Hi,

Welcome to the forum, Beyond Blue is an anonymous and safe environment.

Its wonderful that you have an uncle and grandparent that you trust to talk to. And it is great that you feel comfortable to reach out to us, we are here to help you!

Have you tried going on a walk, or catching up with a friend to take your mind off the break up. There are many support services out their, feel free to contact the Beyond Blue on 9810 6100 .

Stay Strong,

Chloe

[tranzcrybe]

Hi 'taint,

Sorry to hear your emotional struggle to get over ex-boyfriend and well done for finding a substitute form of communication here on the forums.

"I have lost my trust with my parents" - Are you no longer trusting of your parents, or are they not trusting you (or both)?

"I have been feeling unsafe in my house" - What is making you feel this way? Have there been other incidents beside the phone confiscation to make you question your safety?

"I haven't seen my psychologist since January" - Can you make another appointment?

You are always welcome to discuss your problems without judgment on bb. Hope you find some friendly ears and support.

Regards,

t.