BlueArt,
Thank you for sharing something so deeply personal with us, and welcome to the forums. I'm so sorry to hear about your dad's diagnosis, and the loss of your loved one. Grief and loss can be very debilitating, especially when compounded with other pre-existing worries or feelings.
Have you had a talk to your GP, a therapist, or psychologist about how you're feeling? They may be able to offer you some professional advice and coping strategies, if you'd feel comfortable approaching your GP about this. Grief counsellors can also be very helpful for struggles that are specifically related to loss.
I have several short-term solutions for when I am struggling. Firstly, social support can be great for improving overall mental health. I know you've mentioned that you have one friend, would you feel comfortable reaching out to her and spending some time together or perhaps having a phone call to check in with each other? You don't necessarily have to express your feelings to her, just being in each other's company can sometimes be meaningful in itself.
Work-related stress can be so frustrating, as it can permeate other important aspects of our lives if left unchecked. Would you feel comfortable approaching your boss or manager about the level of work you're taking on? It may be worth a try, if you feel like there's a possibility of reducing your workload in some capacity.
In a short-term sense, if you have any hobbies or passions that you enjoy pursuing, setting aside some time a day to engage in these can be really helpful too. Some activities may distract your mind, whilst others like journalling or creative arts help you consolidate some of the more difficult feelings.
I hope this advice is helpful for you. Please feel free to reach out if you need to, we'd love to hear more from you.
Take care, SB
