Hi OrangeFantastic
I think one of the toughest places to be in life would have to be 'the in-between'. It can feel like that place where
- we're in-between knowing who we were and having virtually no idea who we're on our way to becoming
- we're in-between knowing what we used to love and not knowing what the heck our new and exciting or fascinating interests are going to be
- we're in-between having had a fairly clear path in life and establishing the best direction for our self in the future
and the list goes on. As I say, it's a tough place to be with little sense of identity, little sense of the things we naturally and truly love and little sense of solid direction. At such a time, I've found a part of the challenge to involve gaining a new sense of things. In other words developing the natural ability to sense. You could even say it's about becoming more sensitive but in really strategic ways.
You obviously already have this ability to a degree. You can sense the school counsellor being of no help, your parents judgemental nature, your own sadness at times, your mood changes, your need to vent, your need to question and wonder and so on. If you can sense there's something missing, chances are you're absolutely right. Wondering whether you're looking for something of a more soulful nature in life or maybe you're looking to better understand how you work on a mental level or even a physical level (in the way of chemistry that can impact mood etc). Speaking of chemistry, I don't believe it can hurt to get some blood tests done, just to rule out vitamin or mineral deficiencies that can significantly impact energy levels. From my own experience, a significant B12 deficiency can be so incredibly energy zapping and can make it so hard to function on many levels.
I'd say the most important thing to keep in mind is don't let anyone tell you 'You're young and just going through a typical teenage phase in life'. Easy to sense that comment as being dismissive, thoughtless, unhelpful, degrading and even angering or depressing to various degrees. As a 55yo gal, there have been times in my life well beyond my teenage years where I've faced similar challenges, including this current stage of my life. I've found that when significant shifts in life happen (before rising or evolving to our next level stage of life), things can tend to feel like they're coming apart. We can lose a familiar sense of identity and feel so lost at such times. While figuring out who are our best guides through such challenges, we'll also be able to feel or sense which are not the best guides for us. Trust your feelings. Who do you feel or sense would be the best guide for you? Whether it's a psychologist, a particular teacher at school, a relative other than your parents, a particular YouTuber or podcaster, someone on the forums here, a certain author who writes about topics that can offer you greater insight or it's someone else, don't ever give up on looking for the person or people who are not only going to give you a sense of direction but also shed light on that which isn't entirely clear at the moment.
