Dear Risxbel~
Welcome back, I'm glad to hear from you, though not under these circumstances.
I guess from your words in the past you have had a very hard time of it, not finding proper friends at school, a father that says horrible things, hair loss and not surprisingly being made to so down by others that you feel hopeless and in danger of self-harm or taking your life.
Now you find yourself maybe in the same situation, I don't know, except you have posted in the Depression section, which I hope shows an improvement at least a little bit. Unfortunately your symptoms include feeling disconnected and out of your body.The auditory hallucinations must be confusing, even frightening, and to have someone you can trust to give you perspective would be great.
I would be very grateful if you could say why you can no longer see your psychiatrist. Is is simply lockup, uncooperative parents, of did you tell him/her off last time or fail to make an appointment? If it is the weed any sensible psych will take that as just another thing to deal with, not end of world. Same with the other things.
I' m not just asking for the sake of it, you are trying hard on your own, and if you are like me that is not enough, I needed medical help, and I have the feeling you could use help too.
The links Sophie gave you are good with the Kids Help Line at the top of the list.
Hang in there, and please come back and say more, we do care about you
Croix
