How do you deal with/let the pain out?

[April30]

Hi,

I don't really know what to do.. Currently I'm just feeling so stressed out, depressed and completely heartbroken. I wish I could just not feel anymore. I don't know how to deal with all the emotional pain inside me, I feel like I'm drowning it it cause its all just building up and getting worse and worse cause I don't know how to let it out/go..So I just try avoid thinking and all I do is try and distract myself constantly. But it's a rubbish way to live..

And I've heard like that avoiding emotions/pain just makes them worse and that you need to like just acknowledge and 'sit' with them and deal with them. But how do you physically actually do that cause I have no idea how or what the even means. Cause sitting there acknowledging how heartbroken I feel doesn't help me.....

Please if someone has some advice how to do this tell me haha..

[April30]

So I ended up telling this guy how I'm going, cause we are friends and he had always been there for me. But yeah last few months we haven't talked much cause hes too busy.. And this time when I told him how I'm actually going he just ignored it, or well he just didn't reply anyways.. 😭😞

[Aaronsis]

Hi April30

It is hard to manage the thoughts of feeling rejected or like people don’t care when we reach out and don’t get anything back. It is human to think the worst and think that they don’t care, something I have learnt when trying to reach out or seek comfort is that sometimes people don’t know what to do... or say... or are terrified of doing or saying the wrong thing... so they do nothing... which I have found hurts more than if the had of just said they care very much but Have no idea how to help.

I am so pleased we have places like this to come to get the support and to have people to chat to and simply just listen.

I am sorry to hear things have not been going well for you. I am wondering how your sleeping has been going and if you are able to get some rest. Also I know you said you don’t want to feel and so writing was really hard. I am wondering if you have been able to revisit this and maybe consider getting some of these things off your chest.

I hope to chat to you some more and hear how you are going and how you are feeling.

Huge hugs

Sarah

[April30]

Hi Sarah,

Thanks for your reply. Yeah I guess that's true that maybe he just didn't know what to say. He still hasn't said anything an it's been 3 weeks now... I really want to text him again just to talk to him, not even about how I'm actually going or anything.. But I can't decide whether I should or not or if I need to leave him be since he never replied so maybe he just doesn't want to talk to me..

Sleeping is not going good for me. I take ages to get to sleep cause I just can't get my mind to switch off and I hate it cause I just lie there driving myself insane cause there's no distractions when you're just lying there trying to sleep.

I just constantly feel sick with I guess worry and dread, all the time. And most of the time i have no idea why so I can never figure out how to make myself feel better or stop feeling sick cause I don't know why I'm so anxious. I can't stand it anymore though I hate it. I hate being like this. And I've been told that since I've tried 4 antidepressants and none of them helped me, that I'm not going to find an antidepressant that helps me now cause it means they just don't work on me.. So that's making me feel even more hopeless cause then what help is there.. But they're gonna trial me on an adhd medication to see if that helps at all... I desperately hope it works I just honestly feel like I can't cope any more.