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[Susanbr]

I am suffering from depression and am taking medication and seeing a psycotherapist. I have everything I need in life but a very small recent event has triggered this chronic illness. I have suffered from very mild depression throughout my life but never like this. I can't stop crying, everything feels hopeless. I can't get out of bed until midday. I have taken to sleeping on the sofa with a quilt around me because it feels safe. I don't even want to open my eyes to face the day.I am trying to work though this event with my psycotherapist and all the other issues that have happened in my life that this event has triggered off. I can't move on and I am feeling lost, full of sadness, can't see a future I am in such a dark, dark place right now.

[The_Real_David_Charles]

Dear Susanbr,

Have you got any family support or are you on your own ?  The sofa sounds good.  I'm always sleeping on the lounge floor to avoid my partners snoring as the sofa get hijacked by animals.   It's a great warm place and there's always the tv or music to distract you.    You're very sensible to protect yourself like this.

I'm not sure whether your sadness was there before the triggered even made things more chronic.  The depths of despair are pretty bleak. Maybe on the days you opt to see the psychotherapist you can wash the quilt.  Then your thoughts and bedding will vibrate with some freshness even though the place where you dropped spaghetti bolognaise still seems a bit dingy.  Lol.   You sound like a survivor.

Adios, David.

PS   Welcome to Beyond Blue.   I hope you get some support on the site.