Having trouble feeling anything

[CashSmith]

So... I've been having these problems for as long as I can remember, but recently a few other issues seem to have just piled up and made it more than I can stand.

Most of the time, I have this weird feeling of numbness that pretty much pervades me but seems to be localized in my chest, kinda like a hollow ache. Lately though, a really abrupt and gut-wrenching breakup with a woman that I spent a very long time falling in love with and issues with employment have ended up aggravating it. I have trouble getting to sleep, because I always dream and my dreams are so much better than my life right now that waking up is painful.

So now, on top of the normal... I guess, apathy? I'm having trouble mustering the emotional energy necessary for anything, except for getting together with friends which is the only time I can feel anything other than empty. I'm planning on making an appointment with my doctor to get some kind of medication but I'd like some advice first. Is anyone familiar with this sort of thing? Is it bipolar or something else? I feel on top of the world when I'm hanging out and playing games with my friends but any other time is just... Crap.

I appreciate any help.

[vip]

Hi CashSmith please go and see your GP and you may need a referral to a psych its hard to tell with what you have wriiten here I would say you are suffering with depression but you need a professional medical opinion here to get a diagnosis. Hope this helps take care

[Dennis38]

Cash I will agree with Nes here and say that you should go see your GP and have a talk with them. And yes depression does come with that gut wrenching pain at times, other times you just honestly cant get yourself up out of bed because "why the  f*ck should I care" kind of attitude hits us pretty hard. If your GP suggests some kind of meds it might just give you a middle ground so that you can function again. Wish you the best of luck with this road, remember it has a few potholes but there are many of us that are on the same road that might help light the way for you when it gets dark.

[geoff]

dear CashSmith, life stinks when you are at the stage you are at the moment.

Losing a dear friendship is bad enough in it's self and then employment hassles, well what else could go wrong, and your feeling is that nothing could get worse, well it can in that depression sets in and plummets you into the black hole, and unfortunately it's heading that way, so that's why you do need to see your doctor, not tomorrow or the next day but today if that's possible.

I gather and I maybe wrong but being with your friends is to have drink, and by doing this it seems to blank out any bad feelings, please correct me if I'm wrong.

I can't really condone this because it's exactly what I had to do when I was depressed, and it not only happens to you or me but many other people.

Is there any chance of a reconciliation or has that time passed. Geoff.