I don't know where to start my eyes hurt from all the crying. I hate having to rely on others but I have a driving phobia. I have depression. Dysthymia to be exact and my sister is pregnant with her second which is crazy as she trouble coping with her first. Anyway drove me and my kids to playgroup this morning and she always wants me ready on the dot. no waiting around at all. anyway she had to wait a few minutes and that annoyed her, I had 2 kids to organise and then and hour into playgroup her son screams and makes a big scene so she decides then and there that shes leaving leaving me no time to get things ready to go. She just says im leaving see ya. U see the reason her son was carrying on was that he saw my son outside which he shouldn't have been he asked me if he could and I said know then told the other carers I said yes which is a lie so he had to be brought back inside. That caused the problem and I tried to be as quick as I could to go I wasn't even aloud to even my coffee! and I was having a convo with one of the carers. So on the way home she says I need to respect when she leaves as Im going in her car and that she wont take me or my kids anywhere anymore. Then as I got out it was the first time I didn't say thank you for the ride and that got her angry again. I was just too upset to say thank you. This plus my dad having a go at me cos my house isn't clean atm because my son makes a mess. Im Just a mess atm and needed to vent
I am sorry you had such a rough day. Others can sometimes struggle to support any of us with phobias or illnesses. It is difficult to feel valued or loved when there is such tension around what should essentially be a fun family outing.
I am happy to listen if you need to vent again. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
Hi Crash Coyote. Not having the best day today as my anxiety has made an appearance 😞 It could be because I forgot to take my antidepressant last night im not sure but no having it now I just need to wait until tonight to take it. Also having a hard time with my son as hes hard to entertain 😞 how are u going today?
The meds are tricky, aren't they? I don't use them and I hear varying opinions from those that do, but no one raves about them.
I have had a good day. I arranged to meet a couple of friends for lunch and took my youngest boy (13) with me. Nice bistro lunch in nice air conditioning.
I hope you are feeling a little better this afternoon.
