Hard to control my emotions

[love_of_baking]

I always just thought l was an emotional person which l didnt really see as much of a problem, l liked caring and having a heart. But now l feel its getting too much, if anything is a slight letdown or disappointment it affects me badly and l get so emotional and sometimes angry but I'm not angry I'm hurt, it just seems to come out as anger which is frustrating at times because l dont want to hurt the people around me. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety and was seeing a psychologist for a few months bit l stopped going when l felt she knew too much and l started to feel judged. I was also on medication for about a year bit stopped that not long ago because l became pregnant.

I don't know what I'm asking for and know no one can help me only l can do that. I guess I'm just looking for someone to listen and to get the strength to do something about the way I'm feeling again. I just want to be content with life.

Thanks for reading

[blondguy]

Hello Love of Baking

I understand the pain you are going through. I too was diagnosed with clinical depression 23 years ago and have been on a AD (SSRI) every day since....mainly to reduce the chronic anxiety I was going through

You still are a caring person with a huge heart. I have a sibling that refuses to post on the forums as she doesnt have the confidence.....You do!....That makes you an amazing and proactive person where your health is concerned.

The anger you are experiencing is understandable. This can be a part of being mentally exhausted. May I ask you why your counselor 'knowing too much' was uncomfortable for you?

Just from my experience with counselors...if we arent brutally honest with them...they cant really help us help ourselves. I understand that it is difficult to lower our barriers and tell them everything yet if we dont we are not letting ourselves heal effectively. (It took me years to tell my psychologist everything....and I cried so much)

No one will judge you here....We will try hard though to offer the best support we can through our own experience with these awful symptoms

You dont have to asking for anything LOB......I feel your pain....you are not alone. I hope you can stick around the forums 🙂

my kind thoughts for you

Paul