Suffering from major depression and CPTSD symptoms. I'm on anti depressants and other medication if needed. I also do therapy. All I do is sleep and lay in bed all day when not sleeping. I do not go out everyday. When I do go out it's just to get groceries and go back home. Some days I don't even shower. I have had washing to fold and put away for five days now and all I do is stare at it. I have no friends and family is busy doing there own life.
I spend my days completely alone and isolated. I find myself not wanting to be around negativity or negative people. It makes me feel irritable and like I want to run a mile. I'm also struggling to eat which is strange for me because I love food.
II'm basically living in a state of fear of the outside world which is not rational. I'm scared people are going to hurt me.
II'm having relationship issues on top of this. Recently my partner lied to me and I found out. It ripped me apart. I guess all the stress of the last four months has gotten to me now.
I keep asking myself everyday how am I going to get out of this depression and I'm struggling for answers. I'm fully busy just trying to get myself through each day. Each day feels like ground hog day. I don't know how to tell anyone what I'm going through. I feel as if I'm a burden and I got to do it myself which makes me feel so sad as I've always been there to help others.
II just feel beyond sad and hurt.
