had enough

jodes76 · ‎11-01-2014

Can't handle it anymore, my daughter is full on hard work. Lately she been pushing me over. My hubby is also hard work. I hate being controlled. I feel like I need to get away from it all. It's not helping my mental state. I'm so sick of this. I want to leave I don't want or need this shit anymore. I'm smoking I can't quit I can't deal with it at all. It really hurts but I need to get out and change things. I love my hubby but I'm not in right state to deal with this anymore. Feel like a slave. When I do get try get time to myself I get made to feel guilty. So feel down right now, trying to beat the urge to hurt myself. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this

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beyondblue_Online_Communi · ‎13-01-2014

Hi there,

Things sound like they are really difficult for you at the moment. We are glad that you have reached out here on the beyondblue website for some support, We hope that you can see that you are not alone in this and that there are others here that an support you too.

From reading your post it sounds like getting some support for yourself may be good at this point. Do you have any close friends or family that you can turn to at the moment? Is there anyone that can help with your daughter and husband at home?

You can call the beyondblue helpline on 1300 22 4636 anytime of the day or night to chat things through and find out about support options in your area. They can help you to get a referral to a counselor. The counselor can support you with looking at how to cope with self harm thoughts. You are doing well to distract yourself from these thoughts at the moment so keep up this good work. If it feels too hard please though pick up the phone and give beyondblue a call.

We hope that you can get some support and help.
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