Forgotten how to feel happy

Mitch-

Hi

I’m 56 years old and if I were to define my life with one word it would be Hard.

Ive never felt I fit anywhere, I have always just lived around what others need from me.

I feel others don’t really see me I guess.

I was adopted and even though my parents were good people I remember my childhood as being sad and lonely.

As I grew older I desperately tried to find that person who would love and recognise me, but got it wrong too many times.

I view the world as a hard and lonely place to be and at times wish I was no longer in it.

My life now is one that so many people would love to have but I’ve lost the ability to feel happy or trust in happy.

My head is always filled with negativity.

thanks for listening

Sophie_M

Hi Mitch,

Thank you for opening up and sharing so honestly about what life has been like for you. It sounds like you’ve been through a lot, and the loneliness and disconnection you describe must be really painful. It takes courage to put that into words.

Feeling unseen or like you don’t belong can wear you down over time, even when things look okay on the surface. You deserve to feel connected and valued, and it’s okay to reach for support when things feel too heavy.

If you ever find the sadness becoming too much, please remember you can talk to Lifeline (13 11 14) or Beyond Blue (1300 22 4636 / beyondblue.org.au) both have caring counsellors who’ll listen and help you find a way through, day or night.

We’re really glad you’ve joined us here. You don’t have to face this alone.

Take care,
Sophie M