Hi Stacie
Sometimes I think about how much easier it would have been when we were somewhere around 1 - 2 years old. Imagine if we learned to walk as adults, how different it would be. How many times could we fall flat on our face while those around us gave a chuckle of amusement before we gave up in embarrassment with a sense of hopelessness? Back then we gave nothing a 2nd thought (I imagine), we just fearlessly got on with things. Nowadays, the greater challenges can involve a 2nd thought, a 3rd, a 4th and on it goes until we can find our self in a state of dread, stress, fear, torment and anxiety. Perhaps 'fearlessly getting on with things without a 2nd thought' is a skill we had, one we lost. I've found it's a skill I need to regain, personally. I believe it doesn't help when we're conditioned to put thought into just about everything. 'Think before you speak', 'Think about what you're going to wear today. You can't wear that! What will people think of you', 'Be careful what you say. Don't upset anyone', 'Think about what you've done' and on it goes. Most of us spend 12 or 13 years of our young life in school thinking - mentally processing everything and being tested on it (graded), processing which friend group we're in/wish to be in/no longer want to be in, how well we're behaving etc etc. So much thinking. A strange thing to consider but one of the things we're rarely taught is how to balance thinking with thoughtlessness. Even stranger is...we can go off and pay people to teach us how to be thoughtless, through yoga or meditation etc. We can pay to stop thinking. Taking it up a level, we can learn how to simply feel more and think less. Kinda like 'I feel the need to phone such and such. I'm not going to think my way out of that. I'll simply phone them' or 'I'm not going to think too much about that flower, besides admiring it's beauty, I'm simply going to feel how it smells'. Bit of aromatherapy there (aka aroma therapy through the senses).
I'm a taste therapy gal myself, a mega emotional eater. Oh, the joy in chocolate. Mmmm, the excitement in chips. My goodness, the heaven or peace on earth in ice-cream. If emotion is energy in motion, I can feel the energy hit. I find I eat as a form of supplementing. I eat to make up for something that's missing. If a sense of peace is missing or a sense of excitement or joy or satisfaction or all 'round energy etc, I'll supplement with food. I feel so much for you, as it's such a tough habit to break.
How to fall and get back up, without a 2nd thought (besides thinking about what we learned from that experience) is definitely a skill worth remastering. At 52 I remain determined to learn how to do it well. Not easy. Have faith in your ability to master it. It helps to have some really good supportive guides around.
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