Feeling really lost

[m00n]

The past 3 weeks have been really depressing for me. I broke up with my boyfriend who lives in the Netherlands, I keep getting rejected from jobs and my cat passed away from urinary problems.

I have no friends, and I would always talk to my now ex all the time. So I’m much more alone. I miss my cat very much, I’m glad he isn’t suffering anymore, but I wasn’t able to see him before he passed away 😞

I feel really lost and I spent all day crying my eyes out. Everything is just going wrong. I applied to a job at a process warehouse and I passed the interview. After I had completed all the medical work and completed a video call physical assessment (I did all the exercises I was told to do).

Then 3 hours later, they said that they won’t be going though with my application anymore. I feel like my anxiety compromised it, as I tend to stutter and I am extremely shy and passive. (I even stuttered so much in the interview so it surprised me, that I passed it.. it gave me hope that they might of given me a chance.) I think of myself as very friendly and I will force myself to talk if I have too. But a lot of the times I’m quiet. I am fat, so that’s could’ve been the reason I didn’t get the job too, but I can still lift over 15kg, touch my toes and do squats. So it doesn’t make sense.

I should just stop looking for work for now and try and relax over everything that is happening, but I am so tired of sitting at home all day. I can’t obviously find a job on my own, which means I’ll have to go to an employment agency. I went to one 2 years ago and they couldn’t help me find a job either, I feel unemployable because my anxiety is so bad. I had a job at maccas years ago, but I was only there for 5 months.

I do think about studying, but I have no idea what to do with my life, I feel like I don’t have purpose and that my life won’t get better. I feel left behind by everyone.

I’ve been diagnosed with generalised anxiety, OCD and Asperger’s syndrome (ASD). I’m 20.

I’m sorry for writing so much but I really don’t have people I can talk too, my parents aren’t approachable and I don’t want to bother my family.

[Sophie_M]

Hey m00n, welcome to our forums and thank you for posting here tonight. We are so sorry to hear you've been going through so much in the last 3 weeks. You've had one major event happen after another. That's a lot to process for anyone and it's understandable that you'd be feeling so low now. Please know that you are not alone and there is support available. We also want you to know that you're in a safe, non-judgmental space here and we hope our wonderful community members will be able to chime in and provide their insight and guidance.

We'd strongly encourage you to talk to someone about how you are feeling. It isn't easy trying to process everything on our own and it can be very helpful to talk to a trained, caring professional. Do you have any mental health professionals that you are currently seeing? You can also contact Kids Help Line anytime at 1800 55 1800 to have a chat with a caring, friendly counsellor who can help you process the distressing thoughts and feelings you are experiencing.

Please look after yourself and keep posting here to let us know how you're going, whenever you feel up

[Petal22]

Hi m00n,

Wellcome to our forums!

Sorry you have been feeling this way…

Im sorry a lot has happened in your life lately that contributes to the way you are feeling….

Im sure there is a great job out there for you! Some times I think we don’t get what we want because there is something better for us that’s meant for us and it will come into our life’s at the right time, so don’t give up just stay positive that you will get a job for you!

Sorry you have been dealing with anxiety, have you ever had professional help for your anxiety?

I understand anxiety I had severe anxiety OCD, I have now recovered from this condition thanks to professional help….

Im here to chat to you, you aren’t alone