Feeling like I'll never be good enough

PastaTime

I've been trying to get my life in order and do things that make me happy, but it just feels like I put in so much effort to get very little results. I want to make my art into a business but because of how I function with adhd and other commitments, it feels like I'll have to give up that career because I don't make much money from it and I don't have a large enough audience.

But when I think of having to take on other work to survive, it just makes me depressed because I'm not good at anything else and the only work that pays well would make me unhappy.

I feel stuck and that I'll never get achieve my goals and that I've wasted my whole life up to this point, it makes me wish I didn't have to live in this world because I'd be unhappy no matter what choice I have to make.

I wish I was able to change, but after 30+ years change feel impossible at this point

Sophie_M

Hi PastaTime,

Thank you so much for sharing what you’re going through, that takes real courage. It sounds like you’ve been putting a lot of effort into your art and trying hard to make things work, yet it feels like the world keeps pushing back. Feeling stuck and unsure of what direction to take can be incredibly heavy, especially when you’re doing everything you can to move forward.

You’re not alone in this, and you don’t have to carry it by yourself. Sometimes talking things through can help bring a bit of perspective or relief. You’re always welcome to contact the Beyond Blue Support Service (1300 22 4636 or via webchat at beyondblue.org.au) for a confidential chat at any time. If you ever start to feel unsafe or like you can’t cope, please reach out to Lifeline on 13 11 14 or 000 if it’s an emergency.

It’s okay to take things one small step at a time, you’ve already taken an important one by reaching out here. You deserve support, understanding, and space to rediscover what brings you hope.

Take gentle care,
Sophie M