feeling fragile

[TinyJanet]

Hey everyone, I hope this finds you well.

I just wanted to write to SOMEONE because feeling depressed makes me feel as if I'm alone and can't talk to the people around me. It's so weird because I feel like I'm isolating myself, but I cant seem to help it?

Anyway, I just wanted to write and complain - hope that's okay. I just wanted to write that I

feel brittle and broken and that I'm taking everything to heart. I had a disagreement with a best friend of 8 years a week ago and I can't get past it. It was something straight forward and if I was 'well', I would have shrugged it off and marked it down to a miscommunication...but this time, I keep going over and over and OVER it in my head and every time, makes me feel worse and worse. Physically, I feel sick to my very stomach. I don't understand it, but that disagreement has me crying all day, not sleeping at night and yesterday - even contemplating suicide because it hurt me that much. I honestly feel like I'm going crazy. I tried to talk to a friend (someone who knows us both) to get a wise opinion on it, but that friend just had a go at me and I took that to heart, too. I feel even worse having sought out help.

Am I going crazy? I dont know how to get past this. I struggled getting out of bed this morning because I was awake all night going over every negative word my 2 friends had said to me. I don't understand why it's affecting me so much and along with depression, I have now developed a fear of hearing anything else from friends that might

hurt so I have stopped talking to anyone.

I can't live like this 😞


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[Jolene]

I know how you feel. It's an awful awful feeling. All I can say is try anything to distract your self. Learn ways to help stop the over thinking. I too have had small arguments blown up to a big issue and it's never worth it. Try just talking to your friends. Tell them what your going through. If they understand then their amazing friends. If not you don't need that kind of negativity in your life. In my experience i let a lot of people bring me down for years but I would actually have no friends then have friends that don't really care about my well being. Don't think your crazy, having mental illness is okay. Your not alone sweetie. Just try go for a run and listen to some upbeat music.! Keep fighting!

[TinyJanet]

Thank you so much, Jolene 🙂 I really appreciate you taking the time to talk to me xx

[Lottie]

I know how you feel. For me I could be having a perfectly nice day and something happens to set me off. A stranger gives me a look, somebody confronts me about something ( I hate confrontation) or a friend or somebody I dislike embarrasses me. After that, I spend the rest of the day analyzing it over and over in my head until I get badly depressed and suicidal. I think this is an aspect of anxiety, that everything gets taken to heart and you feel so fragile and thinned skin all the time that a little thing can set you off like a friends comment. This has gotten better for me since I have increased my medication. And whenever I start to feel like this again I just have to remind myself that people are far to involved in their own lives to overly judge you. Do you think that perhaps you feel like this because of your depression?

I hope you feel better soon 🙂