Hi - I haven't been this low in a while. Had the suicidal thoughts often in the past with tough times but now even more so. 12 moths ago I was on top of teh worls- had stopped smoking and drinking ( a lot) got healthy was hapy in my work - well liked and leading a great team then...
8th failed promotion application
Step father dies bot unexpectedly but still he was a god step father to me August 2024
Mother dies Sept 2025 - this was unexpected and quite sudden.
My mother made me executor whioch I knew about and left a split 90:10 to me in the will ( my haldf sister wa steh 10%) who had been distant fro mum. Mum left a note with teh will explaining her reasons so in theory that was that. Six months of sorting the estate out and selling the house at probbaly 15% less than 12 montsh ago.
I should add w ehave a son with quite seveer autism he's 24 not likely to leave home and my wife is sole carer so I am teh sole bread winner so to speak but I now have anklyising spondylituis so my back is in constant pain- been to gp nothing to eb done except opiods which I probably should avoid. Any 'teh will' and generous proportion was aimed at me so that we cudl get asecure place to live with our son as he will need life ling care in one way or another.
I moved jobs in July thsi year after failing to get promoted at my previosu place but turms out taht was a poor move- Probably worse here than at my old place so begun looking for another job.
Of course my sister nad now step son are contesting teh will and claiming poverty and needs and all is so unfair. We have mediation late novemeber but everything is a cost against teh estate and ipso facto against my son and my mum's wishes and I just feel assailed on all sides. Health, work, Life, finances and now lie awake thinking it might be simpler to throw teh towel in and at least my wife and sone woudl getmy super and be sort fo 'safe' my lot seems to be done.
