Black Kat,
Would you describe that you are losing interest in most things? Activities that used to be pleasurable no longer seem to be. This is a classic symptom of depression (anhedonia). This is from current personal experience.
Sleeping a lot is also a normal symptom of depression (so is deep sadness and crying spells for no apparent reason).
The situation with your dad is putting extra pressure on you too. With caring for others, it is important to also take care of yourself.
All these indicate that professional help is required. Getting a MHCP (mental health care plan) from your doctor is a good first start. Talk to you doctor, explain what you are feeling, they can help set you on a path to feeling less overwhelmed, confused and/or out of touch.
If you are in a location that you can take advantage of the Beyond Blue NewAccess, I'd highly encourage you to do that.
With the anhedonia, what helps me is to do activities in short bursts (no more than
30 minutes). Most days you feel nothing, some days you feel a little.
However this is also 30 minutes where everything seems less bad than
while not engaged (and THAT is the purpose - it's a kind of timeout).
The
goal at this stage is to give you a break from concern, not elevate you
to happy. When experiencing anhedonia, the old pleasures in activities
that used to make you happy seem an illusion.
I also have occasional emotional dis-regulation. I will feel overwhelmed for no discernible reason. I find this really confusing and disturbing as I am usually in very tight control of my emotions. I feel sure you know what this is like.
You are always free to talk here. People listen. People who have
are going through, or have been through what you are going through.
Letting things go does help. Knowing you are not alone, does help.
Alasdayr.
