Hi, I am new to beyondblue and new to the online world of forums. After much consideration, I finally built up enough courage to write my first post.
I am a 43 year old male who has suffered from MDD (Major Depression Disorder), GAD (Generalised Anxiety Disorder), SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder), and BED (Binge Eating Disorder). I have suffered these disorders for over 24 years of my life. I also suffer from severe sleep apnoea, chronic back pain, and low self esteem.
I wanted to share some of my story for two reasons. Firstly, to see if there are any other members who have experienced similar disorders over a similar period of time. Secondly, I would like to find out some more information regarding an episode I experienced earlier today.
For the last four years, I have been taking medication for my MDD, GAD and SAD. Prior to this, I was taking a different type for approximately 13 years, and before this a mixture of most of the other anti depressants on the market (along with the servere side effects). I found a paticular AD to insight suicide ideation, and feelings to the point of having three relapses whilst taking it. I have been very happy with my current AD in comparison to the other anti depressants. I had been ticking along nicely, until earlier today.
For the first time in over 24 years, I forgot to take my medication. I usually take it like clockwork every morning after breakfast. For whatever reason, I forgot, and most of the day I was feeling very strange. When I realised I had forgotten, I took my medication immediately. However, by this time, most of the day had past. This led to my head hurting like never before, dizziness, neasea, brain clicks, vomiting, hot flushes, shaking, suicidal thoughts and feelings, excruciating pain in my head, and finally a complete emotional break down. It was something I NEVER want to EVER experience again!
I am alright now as the medication has finally kicked in, but for a moment there I was unsure. It really threw me sideways, and I was wanting to know if anybody else on here has had a similar experience? If so, could you please share it with me (and others), as I think it can be helpful for anybody who may go through a similar experience. If you have, I am wondering how long it took you to feel semi normal again?
Thank you for taking the time to read my first ever post! I hope to hear from some of you soon. Bye for now 🙃
