If you're reading this post you have experienced depression or care for someone that is suffering. I can describe depression best as- an extra 10kg of weight on each limb and my brain in water.
Until the tide flows
and the ebb does not return
cradle every inch of my mind
gather time and let it burn.
Essentially, losing time in our lives to depression is depressing on its own, time wasted as we cannot be our normal productive selves. The worst people in this situation is those that are impatient as they fret on the loss of that time. But patience cannot be purchased, it is part of us that cannot be removed except by aging/maturity so remove patience as a goal. If you want more information on patience-
https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/staying-well/supermarket-shelves
There is no coupons to relieve sensitivity
and there's numbers by the phone
But I'll arrive at harmony hill and stable park
As my clock chimes all alone....
It was a sombre chat I had with my old neighbour 30 years ago. She was 82yo with a terminal illness. I asked her if she felt all alone.. "well Tony, we arrive alone and we pass on alone, so I decided a long time ago- I should learn to live alone".
She taught me with those few words of the challenge we all face early or young, that to survive life with a degree of security we have to learn to tackle challenges alone. This is extremely difficult with a mental illness. With all this gathered information my most recent spell of depression just 2 weeks ago (lasted 4 days) I tried to focus on why it came which wasn't clever, but I thought there was a trigger. What could it be?
money in my wallet
sleeping till I'm numb
reasons for the black dog?
I'll always search for one...
So I concluded that as always, I'm thinking too much. Luckily my depression doesnt come around as often as some here but when it does I'm reminded by that old neighbour and how she learned to be alone in peace and secure. Enter my latest challenge to get to that goal and I'm spreading that goal with you.
To learn to survive in life with peace and with a feeling of security as if alone, my own rock!
STANDING ALONE
I appreciate my wife by my side
as she spreads calm upon my toast
but I must stand alone with my confidence
until then I cannot boast
I heard its all quite normal
nothing gained and nothing lost
but one day I'll reach that goal
when on my own shoulders bares my cross....
I wonder if you have goals with depression? I'd love to read it.
TonyWK
