Hi,
I just found out about this site recently from my previous employer.
I've been suffering from depression and anxiety for a number of years. At the moment I feel like it's getting worse. I've just recently moved from the UK to Australia for a chance to start afresh and experience a new country. I have some good days and bad days. On the good days I feel like I can do anything, I've got confidence, energy, I can absorb things, be aware of my surroundings, talking to people. On the bad days the complete opposite happens, complete mental exhaustion, I can't absorb information especially at work, I feel spacey like I'm not in touch and disconnected. My mind feels like a big weight has dropped on it and surrounded by cloudiness. Like today is the pretty extreme end where I've had thoughts of suicide and self harming.
I just felt that a new start would give me a breathe of fresh air and lift my mood. But I feel it's just getting worse. I'm getting married in a few weeks and don't even have an exciting thought towards it. My fiancée doesn't really help me. The best she could do is ask me 'If I'm in one of my moods?'. She acts pushy and tells us to go out and do stuff where as I just want to be left alone. I don't think she understands what I'm going through at all.
What do I do? I want to go see a professional for help but keep putting it off.
Thanks.
Rajeev
