I'm really sorry you're hurting. I know how you feel. I go through months craving to feel better in any sort of way. But sometimes it's not about getting better from the depression. It's about learning to live with the depression. I know how exhausting and soul-sucking it feels. But instead of trying to reach that light at the end of the tunnel where you're all better and happy, focus on what you can do to help yourself TODAY. Just focus on today. Tomorrow will bring whatever it brings, and worrying about it won't do anything. Maybe you'll get over the depression, maybe you won't. But the important part is that you accept that the depression is there, and just try to work around it instead of trying to wish it away. Ask yourself right now what will make you feel even a tiny bit better. A cup of tea? A break from any screens (TV, phone, computer)? An early sleep?
I always find that I become much more stressed and anxious during the night. I overthink a lot about this time, and I worry especially about my depression. It's then that I just have to accept my situation, stop worrying, and go to sleep.
As for exercise, just try to find a way that works for you. A lot of people think that exercise is just working out at a gym or running and never enjoying it, but exercise can be so enjoyable when you find a sport that doesn't feel like a drag. For me, it's yoga and figure skating. Just try out some different sports and forget about the exercise part, just have fun! That'll keep you wanting more.
Hope this helped
Sending love
