Depressed and Shy

[Winnie31]

I am feeling really down & hve that emptiness feeling, I only hve a cpl of friends & they find it hard to understand what I'm going thru. I am now on my 3rd lot of medication this one taking 4wks to work now starting the 4th week I still feel like there is no change. I cope thru the wk due to work but the weekends are the worst, I use to play indoor national netball but due to so many injuries I can't play anymore, I have a PT at the gym I go once a wk but I am so exhausted to go more times. I am tired when I go to bed but when I put my head down I am wide awake even with several sleeping pills. When I do go out with the cpl of friends I have it's normally really good as we do things (go to their place, go shopping - small outings) but I am feeling so low lately even my partner who I don't live with is supportive but at times finds it very frustrating. I am trying to save to move out of the parents in with my partner but being burnt from other partners I am very hesitant which I feel a burden to my partner that I am scared he will end it even thou he says he wont. I am very shy that in a large group I clam up but with one or two ppl I am ok, I want to get out and do something a hobby or a sport I can do with my injuries {knee and shoulder} but I do not know what to do ( I'm certainly not an arts & crafts person lol) When ppl do ask me to go out to say tupperware parties I am in one of my moods where I just dont want to go, they try & after several attempts of trying to get me to do things they give up needless to say they end up drifting away and most of the time it is just me & my partner which gets very boring as we always do the same things all the time. I like being around other ppl and by the time sunday comes around I long to be back at work to be around ppl to challenge my mind push myself etc. I find I am in a rut & have been for many years I have seen a physiologist but find it better if I am doing things surround myself with ppl doing small outings like going to the fireworks etc I am a very simple girl I just don't know what my interests are or what to do.

[blondguy]

Hi Winnie31

A Big Welcome to the BB Forums

Thankyou for having the courage to post by the way 🙂

Netball is one of the toughest and injury prone sports I know....Congrats to you for playing it!

My name is Paul and I will try to help you Winnie

The meds you are taking may take more than 4 weeks to have an effect. So I can help you help yourself....Are the meds for depression or anxiety? If I may ask you that is...

You said that you are feeling down....and have that empty feeling....That is very common but if you can let us know any of your symptoms that would be great...Have you been diagnosed with depression or anxiety?

I have 2 friends as well and I dont like being in a large group either Winnie. Arts and Crafts?.....They are not for me either lol....I just rescue dogs and have one huge one right now..and he is a big sook lol

If you dont wish to go to and do anything...thats fine...at the moment while you are healing. Tupperware or a late night. Your system may wish to heal right now....Be 'Gentle' to yourself....

Do you have a GP that you are comfortable with? (Or a Therapist?) GP's have more training nowadays in what you are going through Winnie....(I still annoy mine..a lot lol)

If you could get back to us (me) that would be great.....

Kind Thoughts for You

Paul

[Winnie31]

Thank you Paul

The meds I'm taking are for Depression & Anxiety one minute I am feeling so down, empty, useless & when thinking of making decisions I get myself all worked up over nothing - I cried at work over what felt like spilt milk as the saying goes. I have been diagnosed with Depression for 12years on & off the anxiety seems to have reared its head just in the last 6 months. I currently live with my parents and hope to be moving out with my partner soon my biggest problem I have that I cant seem to help myself this time round is that my mother follows everything I do, everything I buy u name it she seems to live her life through me so I tend to sit in my room at night with my dog and really sit on my laptop browsing everything on fb that I envy ppl doing or wish I had friends to do them with. Normally I can just ignore it but once again this time round it is really doing my head in and that does not help at all, I feel like I am enclosed animal and trying to do something for myself she finds out somehow so there is no point  (oh I do talk to her but she just denies that she does it & I can do whatever I want). I am trying to get into see my GP on Thursday see what she says about the medication. I stress about my new job I have been in for the past 6months as I have dropped in salary of nearly $300 per f/n so it hurts having to save really hard to move out I have lost my appetite I mainly only eat dinner & my sleeping is so pore its just a struggle with not taking some kind of drugs (sleeping tablets etc) to get me to sleep & they still sometimes dont. I often struggle with not being able to play netball as that was one thing over so many years of where I did meet a lot of my friends and kept very active but due to the years, the way I am, several bad breakups I now only have a cpl left and explaining to them what I am going thru they do try to be supportive but it is hard it can be really hard.