Depressed and sadness

[SilvaLady]

Hello,

This is the first time I'm posting a new thread.

I have been depressed for a number of years now. The anxiety that comes with it, makes it even harder. Often I burst into tears for no apparent reason and my thought patterns are often negative. I tend to be hard on myself, though knowing that it is not "my fault" that I feel like this.

To top it off, I found out yesterday that the Nursing Home I work is closing. I'm in my early 50's and the prospect of having to look for work, is daunting.

I don't know what to do at the moment.

SilvaLady

[Croix]

Dear SilvaLady~

Well all the month is over, and with it hte painfl memories can be replaced wo=ith better ones.

I'm sad you were not able to talk to your SIL, if yu read back in your thread you will see you often mention those who hurt you, but rarely your brother and SIL, who do help. Now is the time to think of and be with those who are there for you. I'm sure your SIL must have sensed something and maybe even wondered why you said nothing. Perhaps being frank might put both of you at ease.

I forget if I've mentioned this to you before but I did put on a mask, and while it served a sort of purpose for a while, stopping other from asking questions, showing sympathy, or giving (often not very helpful) suggestions - it was isolating. It left me alone. We are not built for that.

The need to work is a good facet in you, useful in many ways. Can you combine paid and unpaid work, perhaps at different places or in different roles?

Croix