Crappy day!!!!

[amamas]

Hey guys

How've you all been today?  I have been pretty crap!

It wasn't me being alone that was the trouble that part been great.  What threw me is that this is the least alone I've ever felt at xmas.  That's been a painful reality to try and face.

One of my so called "friends" just text me (first time in a while) asked me how I was.  I text back I've been ****.  My "lovely friend"  text me Still ****?

This "friend" knows heaps of what I've been through, knows my illnesses yet still expects me to snap out of it.

Sorry vent done...

So food been delicious, started my painting, watched some movies, listened to music and here's the stink part smoked.  Fell off the non smoking wagon with a mighty thunk!!!  Back to it tomorrow.

I have to find a way to feel my emotional pain without smokes (my little security smoke screen).  How do you guys do it?   Any non addictive things I'd love to hear ideas!!!!

Merry Xmas everyone!

[Mares73]

Dear Amamas you have incredible strength & courage. To deal with the difficulties that surround Xmas, lack of understanding friends, the usual depression & anxiety we live with -PLUS trying to quit smoking is amazing! It shows how strong you are. Unfortunately I haven't yet conquered my smoking addiction & being a very anxious person I find it so hard to focus my energy on quitting-I'm too busy trying to cope with my anxiety at the moment. Yes that may be an excuse but I have severe anxiety & am trying to find strategies to deal with that so I haven't faced my smoking addiction yet. I completely commend you on trying to quit-it's so difficult for anyone and especially for those who experience anxiety and/or depression. So I think you have amazing strength & courage & resillance. I admire you very much. I also want to thank you so much for taking the time to respond to my posts-you are so encouraging and supportive. It means so much to me. You are obviously a wonderful, kind, caring and strong person. You are in my thoughts & I send you a big hug x mares

[amamas]

Hi Mares

Thank you so much for your kind words!  You really touched me!  I haven't been able to reply sooner because it's hard.  I've been treated really badly for so long hearing nice things takes a while to process.

Thank you again!

I hope you are finding some answers to help with your anxiety!  I can't remember if I already recommended it to you but have you tried the Mindspot clinic?  They are so good!!!

Big hugs Mares! Take care, Amamas