Caught up on everything.

[HarleyTheDragon]

I don't know what I was dealing with, whether it's naivety, being unrealistic, or other feelings.

During the past few years, I have made terrible choices and that was spending a lot of money on strip clubs just so I won't think about my ex-girlfriend who fell for some guy at the internet gaming cafe in 2010. I got emotionally attached to one of the strippers whom I known since 2022 like as if she was a great friend, and now I finally learned the real truth about those "professionals"

I don't know if I really want to make the pain go away. I feel I am emotionally hurt, I just unfollowed them on social media because I felt completely stupid and realize it was their job to be "kind" and "nice" when in fact most strippers are not very nice. I was careful with spending money sometimes.

I don't think there is much good things for me to do other than going to internet gaming cafes, playing videogames so I decide to move on from strip clubs.

[white knight]

Hi, welcome

Well done in unfollowing sites and people that are not a positive influence on your life.

In my experience I can see that holding onto the pain of your ex GF for 14 years is not healthy nor normal. I say this because the period is far too long. Also spending lots of money as a bandaid to sooth your sadness is a sign (perhaps) of a larger issue because excess spending can be a sign of one of several mental health issues. All the more reason to seek your GP's opinion.

The problem with offering your heart to insincere people is that you believe it is genuine when its really a smokescreen. Be it strippers or whoever, they do have a heart but some are selective where their true inner heart belongs, as you eluded, some use it as a professional lever to seek monetary gain.

I feel for you but one way to move on from this long episode in your life is to find true two way love, someone that you can share your life with, accept you are you are and make you happy. Moving on is easier said than done but I think deep inside you can do it.

I hope I've helped.

TonyWK