can someone talk to me pls

Jo3 · ‎07-01-2014

Hi everyone

I need to talk to someone.

I am feeling panicky, emotional and not with it.

Hope someone can come on and chat with me.

Jo

Neil_1 · ‎07-01-2014

Hi Jo,

I'm only here for a short while, but what's up?

What's caused the panic? Is it about the funeral tomorrow?

If it is and you feel it's going to be too much for you to handle at this time, then I suggest you don't go. Could you possibly call your parents and just say that you're not up to going to the funeral?

I'm sorry, I've jumped ahead and this may not be the problem.

Neil

Neil_1 · ‎07-01-2014

Hi Jo

One other suggestion I can make for you right now, is to get on line with the above place for web chat ... I've ghost looked at it before and they have professionals on line and waiting now to help out with cases just like what you've got happening now.

Or at least that's what I think it's for.

I could be absolutely wrong.

But please try that or their phone number.

I'm worried for you Jo.

Neil

Jo3 · ‎07-01-2014

Hey Neil

I feel like I am going to have a mass panic attack tomorrow at the funeral. I do want to go and it will be nice to see some of my aunties BUT i am feeling sick.

I don't want to do any of this anymore; I'm scared that I am going to fall backwards and I will be back to square one.

Jo

Girl_Anachronism · ‎08-01-2014

Hi Jo,

I felt the same way about christmas with my family. In the end my husband came up with the bright idea that they would have christmas but knew that I was fragile. So I hid in my room and he asked if I wanted to see any of them, one at a time. I had the choice of seeing no one at all.

I understand funerals are entirely different kettle of fish. Do you have someone who could be your bouncer for the day? Keep you at the edge of the crowd and warn people that you might not be able to handle talking to alot of people, particularly all at once? Someone who can get you away and in a seperate room or a car if massive panic attacks start to happen? That way you can be there but also be somewhat safe and only talk to the people you want to.

Talk soon

GA

Neil_1 · ‎08-01-2014

Hi Jo

Have been thinking about you and how you got on today?

How are you going???

Neil

Jo3 · ‎08-01-2014

Hi Neil & GA

Thanks for thinking of me today.

Today was a very very emotional day. I woke up this morning feeling quite sick in the stomach, actually causing diarrhea. My hubby and I picked up my parents and then drove to my sister's house. We had lunch and then off to the church. By this stage i was feeling like i wanted to pass out, faint. But i got my strength and got to the church. Walking in I felt like everyone was watching us.

Just so you all know, I haven't seen any of my 9 aunties and uncles and cousins for 20 yrs. One of my aunties walked up to us and gave me a huge hug. I started to cry, we hugged and said it's okay. My mum was upset seeing her brothers and sisters.

Some ignored my mum and us and others were happy to see their sister (mum). It was a very emotional reunion of family today and it was an emotional funeral.

We got to the cemtary for burial and that was so hard. I lost it there as well. At one stage i was so emotional and crying that mum put her hand on my hand and held me.

We have promised a few aunties and uncles that we will definitely keep in touch. One of my aunties said to me - all of you have always been on my mind; forget the past and lets move on for the future.

I'm home now, completely stuffed and going to bed soon.

Thanks again for thinking of me; it was one of the hardest days I have had.

Jo