Hey all,
I introduced myself a little while back and this is my first proper post. I wasn't really sure where to put in it or what to say, I just know I'm feeling pretty down and last time sharing helped a bit. I was diagnosed with anxiety at the start of the year and the whole 12 months has been spent trying to best manage and respond to this while also living my life. I'm so stubborn and whether it is a good thing or not I went to work each day, shared with others what was going on and got help from the expected sources. I have depression now too, intermittently, I think it came about as just being so tired and sick of everything going wrong despite how hard I tried.
Ultimately I didn't think it would be nearly 2020 and I'd be still feeling awful and still wondering 'can I' or 'can't I' have a good day, live my life, put the things other people to do behind me or even if I'm lucky, sleep. I'm still stubborn and I still want so badly to try and get through this and enjoy all the wonderful things. This year I've come to realise anxiety has always been a part of my life, but the depression somehow scares me more though that doesn't really make sense. Anyway, enough rambling, is it possible that 2020 could be better?
I appreciate knowing that others understand. It helps just to write and read sometimes I think
G
