Bleak doesnt cut it

[Doghouse]

Hi. Newbie here. Diagnosed with depression 3 yrs ago after being laid off work after 25 yrs. Really affecting marriage now. Tonight she told me that i have to sleep in the shed as she needs her space. Says im a bad influence on our 20 and 10 year olds. Am at a crossroads now. I have not drank for over 30 years now but am considering turning to it to dull the torment. Meds do zilch. No one i can talk to without fear of judgement. Worst part is, is that u helped her through her depression through her menopause etc. For me now its either boozing or death.

[blondguy]

Hello Doghouse

Welcome to the forums and for having the courage to post too especially under such awful circumstances too

I have been 'forced' to sleep in my car by an ex and I understand where you are coming from and it hurts...a lot

The forums are a judgement free zone....that wont happen here doghouse

Just out of respect to you I have been on antidepressant for the last 21 years and they stopped my crappy anxiety which was good. Im sorry that your meds didnt work for you

Im in my 50's and have been through the same agonizing pain you are going through now.

You are not alone

I hope you can stick around the forums.

My Kind thoughts

Paul

[Doghouse]

Thx so much blondguy. It does help to know that others have similar experiences. This whole thing is doing my head in. I also have anxiety but not as severe as the depression. Its amazing that total strangers seem more caring than our own families...😯

[blondguy]

No worries at all doghouse

I have family members that also dont 'get it'......siblings.....

we didnt ask for depression....its like a physical illness and no different......

These forums are rock solid secure (thus the strict moderation required) and you are more than welcome to post whats on your mind. I wouldnt be here otherwise.

I joined in January 2016 after being made redundant and needed people to speak to as you have...

My depression still comes back like a roller coaster ride sometimes but I know it doesnt last

If Beyond Blue didnt have people like you....(and me 2 years ago) post...there would be no forums

There are many gentle people on the forums that can be here for you too 🙂

I still have a couple of beers when I wish to as well

Great to have you as part of the family doghouse

Paul