been depreesed for so long dont know what to do

[cazza]

I have been depressed for some time now I don't feel like its ever going to get better it all started when I lost my job but now I don't know what to do I am really having a hard time I have so much going on I am going though a had break up I supported the family for 22 years and now it all feels like it was for nothing just when I needed a little bit of help my partner leaves me I have been awake all night just trying to think what to do next my ex is making life hard now we have to sell the house and now I am lost all my hard work to keep the family together but all the fighting over our son just got to much my son is doing better without his dad but I am finding it hard to do anything I just want my son to have a nice future and that is hard when I feel so worthless I feel like they would b better off with out me I don't want to bring them down but some days its so hard to pretend that I am ok when I am not I am on meds but they don't seem to b doing anything at all, but I know I have to try and stay strong for my son I am just lost at the moment

[geoff]

dear Cazza, you are having such a difficult and painful time, and nothing seems to be able to give you any strength, but that's understandable, because there are times in our life that we can never ever seem to overcome, only because the circumstances aren't right.

Firstly I don't believe that the medication you are taking is the correct one or that the dosage is high enough.

There seems to be a few different problems that I can see in your post and they are

-your partner

-your loss of your job

-the selling of your house, and then what to do and where to live

-your son who obviously wants to stay with you

-the protection of your son

-the medication

-your lack of sleep

-no one is helping you after 22 years

-I realise that all of these can be added together, but can you list them in a priority order as to which one is the worst to the least.

[cazza]

thanks 4 your  help I will give it a go but my number 1 is to look after my son he is the 1 that keeps me here

[Stephen123]

Dear Cazza, I am really sorry for what you have had to go through. Please try and reach out to someone, I swear it will be ok if you do.

[geoff]

dear Cazza, I am just bringing over your post with regards to sexual abuse which I'm so sorry that you had to endue. Geoff.

[kitping]

Dear Cazza,

I am so sorry that you are going through such a tough time. You are such a loving Mum and I admire you for that. You do need to be there for your beloved son, but you need to look after yourself first.

I suggest you go back to your doctor to check out the meds (change or increase in dosage) that might begin to help you go through your depression.

KP

[Jo3]

Hi Cazza

I'm sorry I didn't reply to you earlier.  I feel for you.  Sounds like your son is very important to you and that you are a great caring mum.  You deserve to be happy.

You really need to see your GP for help.  Please keep on writing here, we  are here for you.

Take care

Jo