Anyone so quiet they feel isolated and need to repeat themselves ?

BubbysFootballHero
Community Member

So quiet to the extent that you just give up sometimes, youngest of 4, lived with one parent from 2001-2003, graduated year 12, with rubbish marks, and a snapped ACL that wasn't operated on till Jan 2004. then July 2004 i did it again, there was a time during that period where i self-harmed, it was only minor, but i felt quite guilty afterwards and tried to keep it hidden from everyone. Then people call you names, and you don't bother calling them back, because you think your words will just go unnoticed.

I feel im just rambling on so ill leave it here.

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BenD
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Heya BubbysFH,

First of all, welcome to the beyondblue forums.

I'm sorry to hear that you've done your ACL twice. My brother has done it twice also, its amazing the amount of time you have to put into rehabilitating yourself. to fix it up. Did you have the hamstring graft done or the nylon LARS?

In 2010 I broke both my legs, and bones in my pelvis (from being the passenger in a drink driving related incident, my fault for being so naive) and I have felt indescribably down, at times, since. Someone called me names when I was in a wheelchair recovering, and honestly, if it wasn't for my very supportive mother and friends, I wouldn't have got through that stage very well. Injuries suck, but from them I know that you are a better person because you can appreciate how good it is once you recover.

By the way, finishing year 12 is an achievement in itself, regardless of your marks. Are you working at the moment, studying or just chilling? (I know which I'd rather being doing the latter). And do you catch up with your siblings at all?

Always listening,

 Ben

Neil_1
Community Member

Hi there BubbysFH,

Like Ben, I too would like to extend to you a warm welcome to Beyond Blue and for providing your post.

I'll try to add to Ben's response to you, but only a little as he has provided you with a lovely response.

Injuries of any kind suck and as Ben said, the rehab process can often be a long and lonely one as well.  As for name-calling, people who do that, are in my book right up there with the low-lifes of the world and rank equally as low as bullies.  And especially if they were "so-called" friends, I salute and congratulate you for NOT calling them back.  They are people you don't need in your life.

How are things now in a physical sense for you?  It's been on ten years now since your 2nd ACL - no doubt it would have scared you a fair bit for any future kinds of sporting activities, but have you been able to ease yourself into something a little less chancy for any future knee problems?

Great that you've posted and we do hope you can get back to us.

Kind regards

Neil