Am I overreacting?

[M-aggie]

I was talking to an ex fling/ new friend and asking why he hasnt reached out in weeks after we said we were going to be friends, saying that if we weren't going to be friends just say that. He said a bunch of things but one of them was and I quote "I suppose I figured if I was going to ask how you are then I needed to have the ability to come and help if things weren't great." Am I overreacting or is this basically saying that I am a burden on him and an unstable person that needs to be saved? It makes me feel really bad about myself and angry at him that he thinks of me like that. I do struggle with depression and suicidal ideation, I have spoken to him about it but I've never made him do anything or asked him to do anything. One day when I was really suicidal I offered to help him clean his house because I didnt want to spend the day alone but I havent done anything like that before or since. Hearing this from him who is one of the very few people I've opened up to makes me want to disappear. 

[Sophie_M]

Hey M-aggie,
Thank you for your bravery and openness in sharing here. We can understand how difficult it must be to feel this way, and we really appreciate you being open and sharing what's going on for you right now. 

Is there anyone that you feel able to discuss this in person with? We’re reaching out to you privately to check you’re ok. In the meantime, we’d encourage you to give the Beyond Blue counsellors a call on 1300 22 4636 or speak to them on webchat here.

If you’re feeling suicidal or are having thoughts about harming yourself, it's important that you take immediate steps to keep safe. That might mean connecting with existing supports, following a safety plan, or you could connect with Lifeline on 13 11 14. If you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide or self-harm this is an emergency, and you need to call 000 (triple zero). 

We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you, and we’re sure they’ll spot your post soon enough and have some kind words and understanding for you. 
Kind regards,
Sophie M