Always waiting for a better tomorrow

[SweetChariot]

I feel like I am always waiting and hoping for a better outcome to occur for me but it seems like I am just waiting for nothing and that nothing good will ever come my way. I feel sad at the life I have and don't want to be this person and still have to face people. I feel ashamed at who I am wish I didn't have to see anyone again. I wonder if I am just being greedy and stupid for wanting more things and that I should just accept what I have, but I cant seem to push away and become happy.

I am currently 26 and I feel sad that I am not dating anyone and am unsure about my career and if I enjoy what I studied and work in. I want to be doing something that I feel is worthwhile and interesting but I wonder whether it is just me that can't seem to find enjoyment or fulfillment. I was hoping to try and buy an apartment by 28 but feel as though it will not happen as it will be too costly to do on my own in Sydney. I feel ashamed and foolish for thinking that I would be able to do so before. I feel as though everything I I hope for will never come true and I am just living a life I never wanted and don't wish to have. It gives me stomach cramps and a lot of stress. I kept telling myself to keep trying and hoping and to try and make changes but it seems anything I do is for the worst. I wish I was someone I could be proud of. I feel as though I am not sure what good things I am hoping for in the future and question what benefit I can still bring to anyone. I currently feel each day I am just waiting for the evening to sleep and the day to be done again.

[Petal22]

Hi SweetChariot,

Wellcome to our forums!

Im sorry you are feeling this way.

Everything that’s meant for you always will be, it won’t pass you by.

Keep believing that good things are coming your way and will.

Im sorry you feel sad at life I understand I too once felt this way but I decided that I would tell myself positive happy things every day I believe that if we can think happy things it brings up happy emotions it just takes practice.

Is there anything you are truly passionate about?

I found my passion in my 40 s and I have found that the more I help others the happier I am.

[Gambit87]

Hi SweetChariot,

Welcome to the forums!

For a long time I felt pretty much the same way as you are describing in your post. Its terrible feeling like this, its terrible feeling ashamed of who you are. I empathise 110%.

What has worked for me is acceptance. Learning to accept what you have and where you are in life right now, accepting that your current situation is not your final destination and you will get where you want to go, it will just take time. Once I learnt acceptance - everything just kind of fell into place, I was happier and I realised that sometimes you need to take your eyes off the bigger picture to focus on the next step.

Have you considered speaking to a psychologist about these feelings?

[quirkywords]

Sweet chariot

Welcome to the forum and thanks for your honest. When I was your age nearly 4 decades away, I thought my life would be so different than it is now.
Like you I wanted to plan my life but it kept changing so I decided to just accept what I had.

I have always thought volunteering was important and it is part of my life. I have not achieved many of things I wanted but I am content with my life.

At times in my life I have felt like you, then I start writing down my thoughts.

Talking to someone may help to make your thoughts clearer.