A personal win?

[displayname8]

Today I bought tickets for the Dog Lovers Show... which is significant because I hate wasting money - and therefore I have to continue existing until at least until the 8th of August so that my tickets don't go to waste. I'm going with my mum, who is not the biggest fan of dogs, but I didn't want to go alone. I'm thankful that she's agreed to come along with me.

I don't know if this will stimulate discussion or anything but I just wanted to share it somewhere anonymously without anyone I know in real life being able to judge me for it. I've been afraid to even think about anything beyond my organ donation day (becoming an organ donor) - so it seemed so silly to book anything beyond it.. but now that the tickets are booked, that's somewhat of a personal win, right? I wonder whether it's the right choice... I suddenly feel alot heavier with the burden of having to continue to exist - things just seemed so much lighter when I could the see the end of the tunnel.

[Sophie_M]

Hey displayname8, thanks for joining the Beyond Blue forum tonight, we're sorry to hear how hopeless and anxious you've been feeling. 

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[smallwolf]

hi. In my lower moments I would spend each Friday with parents. Sometimes we would go to the movies. Sometimes just stay at their place. And soemtimes go to the museum etc. Between you and me... I think it sounds cool that you doing this! And not just because you are taking your mum. it is something different and unique that might also create some interesting stories afterwards. On top of that you might be able to deepen the relationship with your mum and perhaps talk about things that are bothering you.

One of the things I had to do as homework for my psychologist was to have a list of things to look forward to. So this would be something I would put onto that list and I would say is a win.

It sounds as though you like dogs. Even if your mum is not the biggest dog fan... she gets to spend some time with you!

With all of that said I am also wondering what brought to the forums? Do you want to chat about what you have been going through etc. I can listen if you want.

[geoff]

Hello Displayname, and a warm welcome to the site and understand what you have told us in two ways, exciting to see you're taking your mum to the Dog Lovers Show and hope you are able to take a camera with you, as all of those puppies would have been dressed up to the max to win what each one so deserves to a prize.

I hope it's enough for you to decide to adopt a new puppie that's an aim for you to consider, to play and teach the little one all the tricks you want it to do, that's light at the end of the tunnel, to be proud of showing off your new puppie, that's something to look forward to.

Just imagine how each dog will look, that's something that will excite you and I'm sure you will fall in love with every puppie shown, that's a positive aim in life and you'll be talking non stop about each one once it's over, that's what you need to look forward to.

Many of us have decided to become organ donors, that's well into the future, none of us will ever know about it, and practically don't want to, except that we're helping another person, and that's what we are doing here, helping you try and think about the future, that's why we are volunteers on the site and have felt just like you before we were able to overcome these thoughts.

Before August comes along we have time to try and help you and yes, booking those tickets is the best thing you could have done, so we'd like to know which type of dog you really love, a big or a small dog, long or short hair and which one would be better for where you live.

Love to hear back from you.

Take care.

Geoff.