Looking for Friends!!

[Janey42]

Depression can be very lonely! Is there anyone out there who will be my friend?

[Matchy69]

Hi Neeraj I was in hospital 3 nights and and no I didn't have to do a covid test.It was interesting the guy in the bed next to me was coughing like crazy but must have been ok as he wouldn't be there.When I ring and confirmed my specialist appointment they said their is new rules for coming to the hospital and I have to go to the main entrance and get screened and a mask before I can come down to the clinic.
It's been warm up here and been windy to.I just did some watering and now going to watch tv for rest of the day.Just watching cooking shows at the moment.
I really hope you are recovering ok and that you will be ok.
Take care,
Your friend,
Mark.

[hellohi]

Hi Mark,

Thats good you didn't have to do a covid test, it is horrible! In Victoria, there were strict rules for the amount of time people/parents could visit.

You are right, the person next you should have been ok to be there.

Your GP is right they should have kept in for longer than 3 nights.

Its been windy here too. Watching cooking shows sounds fun! My younger brother uses the tv most of the time, I haven't watched cooking shows for so long haha.

How are you? Are your recovering ok, or is it still really painful? How many more weeks till your specialist appointment?

I hope you are doing well and recovering well.

I hope you, your family and friends are doing well.

Your friend,

Neerja

Thank you for your kindness and thank you for being my friend.

[Matchy69]

Hi Neeraj thanks for being my friend to,I don't have many of them.
I am in more discomfort then pain these days.I go back to the hospital next Friday for a checkup.
I have been out in the garden with my kids today.Realy hot and sunny here today.
Take care,
Your friend,
Mark.

[hellohi]

Hi Mark

I don't have many of them too. School is the worst, friendships change so quickly there.

I am really sorry you are in more discomfort. It must be really hard, and during this time it has made things harder to get help from medical professionals.

I hope the best for your checkup and hope it goes well on Friday.

Has it been difficult doing everyday tasks?

Its the opposite here, really cold and rainy. Has it been raining lately? Do you like rainy days or sunny days? I like raining days the most, it helps me sleep and distracts me from everything.

How are you feeling? How has today been?

You are in my thoughts and praying for your quick and good recovery.

Your friend,
Neerja

[Matchy69]

Hi Neerja I go back Friday to the hospital and have do some test wedseday first.I hate going to or making appointments these days with everything you have to go through when you get there.I need to make an appointment with the dentist as they knocked a tooth loose in surgery but can't be bothered because of the covid19 stuff.
I didn't really have friends in school only people who picked on me and things haven't improved since and the scars are always there.
It's really hot and dry here and it has been very windy. My water tanks are getting low to.I get depressed in this drought I love the sound of rain on the roof especially at night when I am in bed.I think it's romantic listening to the rain.I also like sitting on a surf beach especially at night and listening to the waves come crushing down though I live so far from a beach now.
I dropped the kids at the mother's today after having them during the school holidays.They are back at school tomorrow and then it won't be long it will be Christmas.Mu son asked me to take him to see santa at Christmas and I said I don't know if you will be able to see santa because of the virus.I don't know if they will be allowed to or not this year.I have no idea.
Then he wanted to know how he will be able to tell Santa what he wants for Christmas and I said you will have to write him a letter.
Thanks for being here for me and listening.
Take care,
Your friend,
Mark.

[hellohi]

Hi Mark,

How was the test on Wednesday?

I hope everything goes well tomorrow.

It is annoying making and going to appointments. That sounds really painful that they knocked a tooth loose during surgery and they aren't doing much about it. Did you end up booking an appointment for the dentist?

I understand that the scars are always there, It's horrible how people can be and they don't even realise that their words and actions impact others. Do the memories of bullying keep on coming back and then the voices in your head remind you about? That happens to me, whenever someone may say something to be nice the memories and the voices in my head push it away.

I hope things improve and we are all your friends. I know that doesn't make a difference in how you feel but whenever you need us we are all here for you, even if it is behind a screen.

Has it rained today? The sound of rain is beautiful, I hope it rains where you live. Is there an estimate of how long the drought season will last?

It is pretty much always windy here sometimes it rains. I hate summer because it is doesn't rain as much and there are more people in places and it gets crowded. I hate when there are too many people.

I have never been to the beach, but listening to the waves come crashing down sounds like an amazing and relaxing experience. I have seen photos of waves at night, the colour of the waves is mesmerising. Has it been a long time since you been to the beach?

This year has been unpredictable. I hope they are allowed to go this year. I went to see Santa at Christmas once I think 10 years ago, it is fun.

Writing a letter is a good idea! My brother wrote a letter to Santa once, he was disappointed after it because the colour of the toy wasn't the one he wanted haha.

How are you? How has today been?

Thank you for being here and listening too.

Hope everything goes well tomorrow. Praying for your smooth and quick recovery.

Your friend,

Neerja

[Matchy69]

Hi Neerja,I did test yesterday and the hospital rung me this morning and told me I have to do more test tomorrow when I come in and they are the test I hate doing.
It is very dry with no rain in site.I think they are talking about rain over the summer but I think that will be closer to the coast.We always miss out here.They truck in water in for some of the town's here.
I think it's been 4 or 5 years since I have been to the beach.I almost bought a house on a island where I could go fishing everyday instead I bought out here to be close to my kids and put them first.
The memories of bullying still effect me to this day and always feel that is going to happen where ever I go even though my school days were a long time ago.I am glad I get my groceries delivered now as I don't have to worry about my anxiety doing that and stay home and hide.I am not looking forward to going to the hospital tomorrow as I have to go through a screening process and get a mask before I can go down to the specialist clinic.
I been in bed since 5pm today feeling depressed and couldn't even watch tv.My cat is asleep at my feet.
I am wondering how you are doing and if everything is going ok for you?I am here if you ever need to talk.
Take care,
Your friend,
Mark.

[hellohi]

Hi Mark,

How are you?

They are making you do so many tests, it must be really annoying.

How did the checkup go on Friday?

I hope it rains where you live. It must really be frustrating to miss the rain where you live. I hope the drought season ends soon. Its stopped raining here too, today it is really hot. I guess it is good for my brother because he is going to school today.

I understand that you must really miss being at the beach 4-5 years is a long time. It is really caring that you put your children first. Your children are really lucky to have such a caring father.

The bullying memories have been really impacting on you. It is so horrible how people are. You did not deserve anything that they did to you.

do you feel like there is this fear that outside school that it is going to happen again? It is really scary. I am glad that you get your groceries delivered.

Do you try to stay at home as much as you can? I try to do that, part of me wants to go outside, the other part of me tells me to stay inside and comprising it for safety. I always get this weird feeling when I go to school. It feels safe at home, with the walls protecting you and you can hide.

I understand that you don't look forward to the checkup, the process for the checkup is annoying. Did it go ok?

I am really sorry that you are feeling depressed have been in bed since 5 pm. Are you feeling a bit better today?

How many pets do you have? Your cat seems really relaxed.

I guess everything is going ok. I am not looking forward to tomorrow, I am turning 15. then in 3 years time I would be an adult, it feels weird, to be honest, I don't think I am going to make it till 18.

Thank you for being here 🙂

Your friend,

Neerja

[Matchy69]

Hi Neerja it was real mess up at the hospital as when I did the test the first time the computer cut out and I had to do again.I couldn't believe it.I was in pain from it.The test showed that it doesn't look like the surgery has worked so I have go back in a month and do it again and then they might have another proper look inside of me.They talked about doing another surgery to fix something they damaged in the first surgery and has left me in pain.
The bullying is always with me and scared it will happen again.Decided not to try and make any new friends.It just gets to painful.I did have a period where I wouldn't go out of my bedroom when I was about 20.I was going through really bad depression from losing my father.I don't go out much these days.I potter around the garden but spend most days in front of the tv or on my bed.
I have one cat bubbles and 4 chickens that eat their own eggs and never really get many eggs.Ones called stripey and my daughter named the other 3 bit forgotten what.I do have bird feeders out for the wild birds.
Happy birthday for tomorrow and turning 15.I remember turning 15 seems like a life time ago.I wish I had the energy that I had back then.I wish I could make you a special cake.
It was cloudy with a bit of drizzly rain this morning but it's really hot now.Their is a forecast for a possible storm later but I don't think so.
Take care,
Your friend,
Mark.

[hellohi]

Hi Mark,

It is really bad that the hospital experience was messed up. It is horrible how you had to redo the test. It sounds really painful, are you still in pain? It's really bad how they damaged something and they knocked a tooth loose during the surgery. Did you end up going to the dentist?

It's not good that the surgery didn't work. It must be really annoying having to go back to the hospital. How do you feel about having another surgery?

It is really scary, I understand what you mean about deciding to not to try to make any new friends. I am always your friend, even if it is behind the screen.

Many of our fears come from the past. Have you had bad experiences with friendships? I remember in year 5 I was bullied, my friends didn't help me, they left me alone when I needed them, because of this the remainder of year 5 and 6 I spent alone. But I did meet someone who understood me and never judged me, but we changed schools she went to a different school and I went to a different one.

It sounds really hard and painful, that you went through a really bad depression. I am really sorry about your father.

Its not fun going outside, there are too many people everywhere. Have been watching movies at home?

Bubbles is such as a nice name for your cat! Hehe, its funny how your chickens eat their own eggs, at school there are 3 chickens who eat their own eggs too. Your pets have really nice names! It is really good that you have bird feeders, I bet the wild birds really appreciate it. I used to have one in my old house, not many birds came haha.

Thank you 🙂

hehe, my parents forgot about getting a cake for tomorrow lol.

When is your birthday? Do you have a favourite memory?

Its good that it has started to rain, it is really hot here too. I have the air conditioner on, I think it is 30 degrees outside. Did it end up having a storm where you live?

How has today been for you?

Thank you, Mark, for being here 🙂

Your friend,

Neerja